Caged in Armor

I used to think that I was so strong

Because my heart had been guarded for too long.

But that wasn't true for me at all

It was due to the fact that in the past those I loved watched me fall.

They claimed to care but the moment I needed them they weren't there

I was let down again and again, cursed life for being so unfair.

But as I grew, I stopped expecting any helping hands

My faith in others continued to sink into quicksand.

I solely relied on myself for protection and comfort

All to distract me from how deeply I've been hurt.

What was left of my self-esteem had shattered

Though alone in my room I wish I mattered.

For a single person, a light at the end of a tunnel to help rebuild my trust

I'll look up into the stars and pray for them if I must.