Breaking Chains

It took me 4 years with my first sons father ~ Then 10 years with my other children's father, now it's been 4 years with other family & I admit with raising my first son I've had moments of demise, but I can see so clearly, signs everywhere, old letters I find resurfacing, this house has never been against me, it's been trying to warn me, to make me leave for my good. Yes the bad here does try to keep me here; lost in the misery that feeds the darkness, but I won't allow that to continue! As well you won't keep setting aside my happiness for another's. My younger children deserve to have me as my best, not as the pitiful being I became living in such terms of unacceptable manipulation and blackmail that's been posed as love. I have a battle inside me ,with my heart mind and soul, I know what needs to be and am making my way to getting it but there's always delays... Delays have importance; I accept that because I need to get time to put this all together!