blurry

what am i missing?

i look around and nothing is there

your face is clouded and the gaps between us widen

i watch as you stumble

a blurred figure that shifts and sways

how did i ever know you?

it's as if i was expecting something

which is against all of what i was taught.

give everything, expect nothing.

over and over and over again.

no one said it would be like this..

and yet no one said it wouldn't

they don't see the difference

but that's just it

i can't see

the numbness..it's a pain in itself and it grows

cutting deep into my irises

but i barely notice

for i am simply fixed on you,

staring as you turn and trip again

how inconceivable!

it shocks me that you're just like them all

beginning to blend into the walls

worth nothing more than another speckled corner of wall.

i don't get it

i can no longer see how great you are

another crack comes

i let the momentum cleanse my vision

but once i've opened my eyes

and once i realise,

i see more crowded crying faces merging recklessly

and you, damned in the centre almost gone.

so i turn,

and blindly guided by something primal,

i run.