.BLUE BOY.

I spent three hours rearranging a chair

Convincing myself that my feelings were fair

Posted a thousand times so you knew what was wrong

But the message got lost in the lyrics of a song

Didn't post at all just to see if you'd see

But I liked all your stuff, so you still heard from me

Didn't eat for a week just to starve out the pain

Everyone was proud I lost the weight that I gained

Put on my backpack, but couldn’t get myself to class

The professor just failed me and didn't even ask

Didn't shower for a while, cause I didn't see the reason

So, I fermented in my sadness cause it wasn’t my season

Let my mess pile up till it grew its own life

Couldn’t get myself clean, no less a fork or a knife

Kept the lights off and bathed in the dark

It was cold, still and necessary and even kinda stark

Laid in my bed and drowned in my cover

Curled up like a fetus trapped in his mother

Held my breath till my brown skin turned blue

Held my breath for the life I'd been through

Started to breathe, but my color never came

Cyan, navy, indigo, but never the same

So, I'm just the blue boy

Sitting there without a smile

I'm just the blue boy

Who ain’t been black for a while

He was so blue

He was black, but blue

Black but blue

Black

Black

Black so black they should’ve called him blue