Blind With My Flesh - Judicium

That part of me

was never me.

Damning guilty pleasures.

Praying for the convicted.

Decreeing my flesh

stay separate from my soul

then pleading for baptisms

dawn after dawn.

Only chosen eyes

saw a father.

I saw him

until weaknesses

let rebellion stain my eyes;

O’ twisted ecstasy of mine.

At my most tainted

he saved his most submissive.

Only obedience crossed his threshold,

ascending Judicium,

while my flesh and I

stayed behind burning blind.

Eons passed as Sophia’s whispers

challenged the verdict upon me.

Saturn marked me with

the harshness of countless lifetimes

karmically revealing

repeatedly and patiently,

that part of me,

damning and praying

over flesh and soul,

was never me.

I, never saved,

was blind

to my weaknesses being

the greatest of me,

withstanding Judicium

without surrender or saving.

Ascending Judicium

by falling.

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