blazing stars

This reminds me so much of then

I wish I could go back

The same stars scattered across the sky like the freckles on her face

Watching the hours chase

Each other in an endless race

The warm thrum of her voice in my ear

Sleepy blue light of my dying phone

We stayed up the whole night just to prove that we weren't alone

And we promised that we'd stay this way until we were grown

Still don't know what happened

I know I'd take you back in an instant

Even after all the ways you hurt me

My heart just gets hopelessly

Stuck in this pattern

But no one else ever made me feel the way you did

And I wish that

I could go back and

Make you stay

I imagine the days

The nights with you in them

If you'd have stayed

And the hours still chased each other in circles

I wish I didn't throw away

The pictures and the letters I had

But I guess grief gets pretty bad

And I'm just sad

Counting the stars in a sky that's getting dark and blackened at the edges

Like invisible smoke came and scorched it until

The stars are falling in burning arcs across the world from me to you

And my eyes are just swimming in blue

The words on my screen

Fading

Dying out

Like the last, desperate embers

Of blazing stars