It wasn't until the arse-end of 2024 that I suddenly figured out what is wrong with my life. How askew my expectations are. And how many things I am anxious about that I just shouldn't be. It took someone being unfair to me to realize that no one else but me was going to be my advocate. That no friendship is worth being treated unfairly and just letting it slide. I always knew something was missing in my life. I thought it was because I couldn't find anyone who loved me for me. Nope. It was because I didn't love me. I didn't take care of me first. I didn't know when to let people go. Once I told myself, "You don't have to beg for anyone's love" everything changed. That's where I am right now. Trying to live in this new reality and albeit lonely, it is much better for my mental health, methinks.
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In 2024, I found the most broken parts of myself.
My mind enslaved to someone totally out of reach.
My heart tied up in strings owned by someone whose
own heart I couldn't breach.
There was only one place I wanted to be, outside the USA.
I went in April but it was too short a stay.
My entire happiness revolved around others in my life.
Their words could uplift me, or send me spiraling
towards endless bouts of strife.
I was miserable.
Unless needed I was invisible.
No one cared for me the same way I cared for them.
I was an anxious ghost, and in my own skin an unwanted host.
Then one day something happened and I had to take a stand,
be my own advocate, hold my own hand.
I realized that any happiness I could truly have wouldn't
come from a girl, or a friend. That being happy is something
you create within.
Now I'm lonely but I am happy. Things are going good.
I am beginning to really love myself the way in which
I should.
In 2024, I found the very best parts of myself.
Things before that I had failed to see in me,
courage, honesty, kindness and creativity.
My 2025 goals are really pretty simplistic
Be honest
Be kind
Keep your expectations realistic.
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Thanks for reading! - Sam
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Sam Harty is a poet of raw truth and quiet rebellion. Author of Lost Love Volumes I & II and The Lost Little Series, her work confronts heartbreak, trauma, and survival with fierce honesty and lyrical depth. Where to find me
Comments (10)
What a powerful reflection! It's raw, honest, and brimming with growth. Letting go, advocating for yourself, and learning self-love—these are no small feats. That shift from seeking validation externally to finding strength within is profound. Here's to 2025 being your year of honest kindness, grounded goals, and the flourishing of your creativity. Cheers to you! ✨
This is a wonderful piece, very real and poingnant.
Very excellent
I'm emotional, this is so raw and real.
Persistence, perseverance and patience brings peace. Great job. Hang in there Sam
This is a beautiful and honest piece!
This is great. 😊
All terrific goals!
Wonderful testament to resilience, strength, and self reliance Sam. Good work. 🤗
Mind Blowing