Beautiful distraction

Through time,

my soul would transition.

I was finally getting it;

Point of no return.

I allowed you to re-enter my space,

during a time,

when I was facing myself.

And I let you in.

It got way too deep,

Too fast. Too close. Too soon.

Seeing possibilities of a life that could have been.

But his heart,

Just would not let me in.

Reminded of a spark,

that was always there.

But you didn't belong to me.

And you were not mines, to share.

I played by the rules.

You played by the game.

I thought I met my match,

But we are not the same.

I look to the sky,

"Can I keep this one?"

"This one!" I yell.

"This time?" I whisper.

Once again,

this world said no.

I didn't deserve him.

He was untouchable.

Had to let him go.

Unpure thoughts clouded my judgement.

Not the type to chase for long.

So I bid farewell to a love,

I could have had.

Love life=A sad song.

Then I picked myself up.

He, was not a part of my plan.

That's why my dear,

I can't seem to keep a man.

He was, my beautiful distraction.

His smile alone,

made me rise.

And even though he doesn't know

I know, he's hurt inside.

So, I put my pride aside.

Told him how it feels,

To never be looked at as a prize,

only to be used for cheap thrills.

He touched me.

oh so gently,

but I knew he wouldn't stay.

Because he was too worried,

about what OTHER people would think, and say.

So, he turned his back on me.

And he let me walk away.

Everything felt so right.

But, once again I was wrong.

So now my heart is breaking,

beating,

a sad love song.

What happened to all the care?

All the intimacy;

the TRUST.

The passion.

Remember our reaction? (smile)

It was just my imagination.

You were just,

a beautiful distraction.

I tried,

to be patient.

You knew what I went through.

I shared with you my quest,

Just to see,

what you would do.

Then you turned your back on me,

My handsome interruption,

was a test.

I failed.

Miserably.

His silence showed me clearly

how he really felt about me.

Yet the love he gave me briefly,

still lives, inside of me.

You,

unlocked something inside me.

You let my heart,

be free.

A seductively,

lustful connection.

You were my sexiest lesson.

You broke the promise we made,

So,

I only look at the blessing.

You will remember me.

Lost love.

And smile alone.

with satisfaction.

I will never forget,

that you came,

and found me.

You are my beautiful distraction.