back when you loved me

Back when you loved me I wasn't ready

You were a whirlwind in the storm

With your kisses and hearts via text

You reminded me so much of my ex

Before he became a shadow of my past

I needed time to heal, time I never got

You slithered your way in with your cream pies

You told me not to talk to other guys

Whilst you had multiple girls on your list

When the times were good, they were excellent

A chemistry between us and mutual interests

Though when others hit on me it was my fault

Expecting me to pay for everything, promises to

Pay me back forgotten, but the odd gift here and there.

By the time I was ready to love you, you discarded it

I let you sleep on my bed, but I was only worthy enough

To sleep on your floor, I didn't mind back then cause I tought

You were nice enough to let me stay over.

I only looked at your phone twice and that was cause

You gave it to me, the messages popped up,

and how I know the other girls' names

My eyes just happened to be glancing, in your direction

you weren't subtle with it, but like you said

After you fucked me on the floor, we're not together

So you have no right to complain when I meet others

At least you won't have to miss my mouth skills as you

Will have lots of girls on your list that you like to keep private

Your girlfriend (or at least one of them) tried to add me

And you ordered me to get rid of her before she could speak

You said you didn't want a fight, but why would I fight

Whatever lies you spread about me, I forgive you

My friends and family saw right through you

I say back when you loved me, I felt special.

They say you fell out of love ages ago.

But that was never love was it?

You said I wasn't serious when I told you I moved on,

You cut me off because I didn't reply to you

I was at work, and you couldn't get your way

If you think I was some sort of slut why

should I bother wasting anything on you

No hard feelings you say

You didn't mind because you didn't care

You've got your pick and mix and like you said

You always get what you want and you got

What you want from me.

We fell out and then we made up again

I did a big detox from social media

Then you dragged me back in.

I let you do whatever you wanted to me

Because I loved and trusted you.

I bore my soul for you

I starved myself for you

Yet that wasn't good enough

Get it in your thick skull you're disgusting

Your brain is fucked you got a crusty fanny

You suck you knob

Haha I was joking

Unrequited love sucks, more so when

it's a player you thought it was a friend.

Your little jokes stop here because guess what?

I'm not your side chick anymore.

Friends with benefits or a situationship

You only want me at your convienince

You didn't even care when I miscarried your child.

You said you felt nothing and told me to move on

I know you lied since the day you said you loved me

You couldn't even kiss me and you hurt me

When you said I only wanted you for sex

When you said I was a crazy pyscho

I've never forgotten anything you've said.

I remember everything; the good and the bad

Yet, here I am slapping a keyboard like a bitch

With eyes streaming down my face

You're most likely sat by your gaming station

With crips, chocolate and energy drinks

You lied to my friends when you said

you were looking out for me and accused

a bestie of flirting with you when she has a partner

You accused me of giving your number out when I didn't

I should have listened to my ex, my brother and

everyone when they said I needed to bin you

A friend would never let another friend

starve themselves and call it disgraceful

when the fast needs to be broken I don't see you

doing the regime that you've set upon me, but

it won't matter, I've everything to be something to you

Only to become nothing...