Away

Drive, keep driving

It's almost clear to me now -

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"很遠很遠的地方" [Far, far away place]

Home is a time that will never return

Locked into memory, pristinely confined

the bland and banal, long ago dissolved.

An unmatchable peace

clashing with my waking reality

Clung to in their fading

faint traces are all that remain.

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Home is a place I have never been

across the sea, with those like me.

Instead,

an eternal guest

trespasser on foreign lands

One thousand warm welcomes cannot grant me

a single door that is mine to unlock for you.

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"我深情的把你嚮往" [I affectionately long for you]

Home is the language I once knew

spoken through screens and speakers

written in gestures and smoky laughs.

Fading to whispers, histories rewritten

by those who claim to be my own

Sanguinary utility outpacing sanguine tranquility.

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Home is the person I wish they would see

when they arrive from lands afar

searching for signs of what they left behind,

not knowing there were some left ahead

to wait for them. I see them yet-

their eyes pass right through me.

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"讓幸福眼淚自由的流淌" [Let the happy tears flow freely]

Drive on, keep driving

We're almost there -

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Away from home

sorrow together turns to isolated despair

Neighbors to strangers,

Familiarity to fear

A gaze that follows, questioning, rejecting

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"緊緊追尋風中歌聲的方向" [Closely follow the direction of the singing in the wind]

Home is a time that will eventually arrive

when the grey smears drain from my eyes

and the pining to belong subsides to surrendered benevolence.

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Home is an idea you can no longer afford to search for.

There is nothing waiting for you on the other side.

No one to recognize what you once were

after all that you've become.

There is no going back to what was never yours.

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Home is a creation of the nomadic people

our wandering trails, our unfinishing journey

my joy, the fabric

my loss, the thread-

Here, there is no waiting, only going.

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"我快樂的地方" [My happy place]

Drive, keep driving

There's nowhere left to go but home.