I seemed to have some side of trouble added to my morning eggs—-I had a little more time to look at my entropy that piled up like clean laundry on the bed
I ate it up, it seemed to disagree with my insides—-eating me up inside
Crawling my vessels with pronunciation, proud of its loudness even as all the outside stomped on how big the loudness was
When I saw a lady reading steadily, “Fifty Shades of Grey,” I felt like there was a big gap of light between us, strangers that had never crossed our paths, books like, “Catcher in the Rye,”
She wouldn’t blink an eye—-or would she?
But the fact is, it didn’t matter
Matter is matter, material is subjective
I’m floating around like an alien balloon that doesn’t realize it was never invited to the event itself
The party rejects me, like life, like love
Yes, God may love me, but I’m a sinner
Yes, I may not be perfect, but I’m a powerful lover
I give too much & get less in return, someone once said,
It felt more pathetic than a punch to my face
I ate up all my entropy today
I ate it up so the loudness don’t smell like regret
Like a sizzling, hot mess in the kitchen, all set up for good intentions with a nice cup of coffee too,
Eaten up by the monster inside all of us
Who left the book we needed to read by the bedside
Leaving family all alone and calling it what it is, love & family & love
Read that hot (hopeful) garbage with glee, I told the woman in my head
Maybe it actually gets her through the damn day.
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"I’m floating around like an alien balloon that doesn’t realize it was never invited to the event itself The party rejects me, like life, like love Yes, God may love me, but I’m a sinner Yes, I may not be perfect, but I’m a powerful lover I give too much & get less in return, someone once said, It felt more pathetic than a punch to my face" Gosh I read those lines again and again! Soooo deep and relatable!
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Probably better off with Fifty Shades. Catcher has a way of inspiring assassinations... Well-wrought!
This is beautiful and powerful and a little chaotic. Well done.
I could hear this being performed in my head. It had a hardness to it that felt like a march. It was good. I liked it.
I hate when I get the entropy feeling. A great book for distraction is a good direction to take, if you asked me. Your poem is so relatable
Brilliant & Beautifully Expressed! Sending you a big hug Melly Gold! 🩷
This is raw, fiery, and unfiltered in the best way! The blend of chaos and clarity hits like a perfectly brewed cup of existential coffee. Loved the wild honesty and the side-eye at "Fifty Shades." It's messy in the most relatable way—like life, love, and leftover regrets. Bravo for the boldness!