As deadly as I am

I knew what I was doing.

I turned my back on him.

I betrayed him,

I broke promises.

I didn't know that tables could turn.

I had no idea.

I'll need him once more.

I took him for granted.

Judged him wrong.

Out of desperation, I made decisions.

Now I realize I made a mistake.

My previous acts haunt me.

I'm distressed.

And now I'm consumed by anger.

I'm not sure who is to blame.

I know I wasn't clean.

I'm not as pure as the lethal drug.

I'm like a wound.

I bleed as if I have a razor cut.

I came across the path of destruction.

And it's too late to turn around.

I feel like I've ignored God's fate.

I thought I'd get greener pastures.

And I made terrible mistakes.

Adultery became my weakness.

The fruits are rotten.

But the seeds are alive.

I'm trying to cope.

My heart is weak.

I better go there,

I'll force myself back to him.

I better be his burden.

He will learn to love me again.

As deadly as I am.

I'll be his lethal drug.