April 22, 2019

Nobody really wants to be alone

and its human nature to be passionate,

but when somebody continues to hurt you,

why do you accept them back again.

Are you willing to sacrifice a few months

in exchange for your happiness.

Maybe you're also afraid of being alone

and thats the only things thats stopping you.

But its never too late or impossible to find love in solitude.

I know it may bother you and inside of you it may

feel like when doves cry.

But sometimes it's more than okay for you to let go

and maybe let love die.

And honestly sometimes i sit in my room

and i cry myself to sleep.

Trying not to let these suicidal thoughts

get the best of me, i really don't believe

love and relationships are in my destiny.

Because everybody that i've been with

has made a complete mess of me.

So i really don't think i have much left in me.

I know the devil is only testing me with the bad, but I'm

still here in this deep depression and it hurts.

I guess i didn't learn the first time so

i have to repeat the lesson.

You know, everything in life comes with

a deeper message.

But deep inside of me i'm still trying to fight the feelings,

of leaving this world even though i know i have a right to live in it.

This really can't be the life i'm supposed to be living.