you’re acting so aloof
If you didn’t want to be reminded of pain
Why did you cause it
If you didn’t see the cracks
Why did you build up the walls
Breaking down into a trauma sauce
Of sour candy that went bad, too hard
Too sour
And cracks off shavings you don’t want on your beaten tongue
A mocking lashing of a finger wagging
At a child’s face when disobedient
You’re so lucky to be able to act so aloof
Lucky to make the scars but pretend to be in pain when it’s brought up
To be more wounded than the wounds you caused
You’re going to make up big words for your small actions
You take accountability without consequences
Yet I’m here taking up the slack
You did kill me
Yes, you killed me
I’m still here, breathing,
I’m still breathing but you
Murdered me
The cliche of murdering ones soul,
Breaking their flesh and soul
Day in and day out
How exhausting was it for you to mistake love bombs for hate speech
How tiring was it for you to apologize thousands of days and nights saying how you felt truly awful for what you did and then did it again the next morning, the next month, the following year
How utterly horrific was it for you to be responsible for the termination
Destruction
Decimation
Murder of someone who trusted you with everything they had?
It’s easy for your trauma to be my physical scars
It’s easy for your love bombs to break down into a messy context
Falling apart into chaos
It’s so easy for you to be aloof
It’s so easy.
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No matter what the bombs are made of, scorched earth remains... Well-wrought!
I hate people like that, they don't deserve that kind of love
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Wow, amazingly said and gutting! Well done.
"Murder of someone who trusted you with everything they had? It’s easy for your trauma to be my physical scars" Those were my favourite lines. Unfortunately, it certainly is that easy for some people. Loved your poem, Merly!
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Fuck that's powerful. Well done, my friend.
Crikey! That was a verbal blasting. I love "trauma sauce". That's a great phrase.