All In My Head

Just count past the minutes

And I'm sure you'll see me there with a smile

No need to question this cheery disposition

It's all okay, he's got it on lock

Or so they think and so it seems

But lately, it's been harder to breathe

Maybe I should just stay up

And count the sheep as they run right by me

Or maybe I should give some thought

To the one who's left foul gifts

Unwrap the paper and read the postcards

From the times long hidden away

Or maybe it would be easier to wish away

When's the next star show, one just won't do

I need herds to hear my plead

I need an army to shield me

Just every now and then

And then for them to take off

I never loved the smothered emotions

Of protection, no I always saved myself

But sometimes it hurts to be the only one in armor

Sometimes I just wanna touch of love

From someone other than me and those I trust

Someone who I can run to and hide away

Someone who I can dream of and love all day

Someone to escape to when the madness

Is too much and all in my head

But it's all in my head, all the pain

And the sorrow, I can't help but think

I need some guidance, but my pride won't blink

I may be an airhead, but that's all okay

With me, all these thoughts just stay all in my head

And the trains keep going, everyday

With a new delivery for someone façade

So, I must cover up and keep it on straight

If I wanna keep my heart giving too much again

So maybe if I dress up this wound

I could take on the world on this runaway

Or catwalk, whatever it takes

To keep this confidence from breaking

All over my face when I fall just a little harder

They say it's more important the way you get up

But they never ask you how much it hurt

When you fell right through the cracks of the earth

You created something beautiful, an imprint

And it's all in your head

The pain is all in my head

When I start crawling, I'm reminded again

Of the good and bad times, filled with memories

But I'd love to make some more with someone else

Who's worthy and loving, done with fraudulent

Activities, they’re worthless to bleeding hearts

When they ache from each stroke

All they need are a gentle caress, no callous tones of distrust

If you hate me, keep all that energy to you

If you love me, show me that I'm all you need

I'll prove that loving me is all you'll ever need

I'll be your hope, your mountain, the rivers

And don't forget the air you breathe

So, if you're depraved, I'll gift with life

So long as you can do the same for me

Promise the pain is just all in my head

When they call me an airhead

Think that I got it on lock it

It's just all lies, I feel everything

It's not my fault, born to ocean's love

I'ma swim against the current

Dive to depths man's never seen

Call me the prince of the seas

When you see holding a scepter

Know that it was chosen for me

But maybe all the glory and dreams,

They'll always be all in my head

But if it keeps me in love with me

Maybe I'll stay all in my head

Until I find the one for me

I'll stay all in my head with my dreams

Or maybe I should be focus on now

And keep the dreams for my future

But if my time comes and goes

What will my future hold for me

Is it worth the fear?

Should I just sit back and watch the blue skies

As they darken and cry

Or should I make my move and learn what I can

And turn all my dreams into reality

Then maybe they wouldn't be all in my head

With the pain and forgotten misdeeds of long ago

With the hurt and lies, maybe I should find

Something I can do better, then I won't find the blues

Maybe I should go back to the ocean's that birthed me

Or maybe to the being that made me

And see what it takes to find out who I am

Maybe all this pain would leave my head

Or maybe I'm just reaching too far

That I can't see what's right in front of me

Maybe all I need has been right here

Ready to hold on, but I pushed it away

And I'm hurting my soul more everyday

Add selfishness to the list

And maybe I'll be a better man

Or maybe it's all in my head

But I'd be in love then keep it inside

Time for me to stick to the plan

Maybe all this pain I've held

Can find a new home somewhere else

But lately, I've been thinking

Perhaps it should just stay for right mow

Unpack those bags and turn this land to a home

Oh you can stay right beside me

Take a sit, stay awhile

There's plenty of room in my heart for you

Even if you stay all in my head