A Woman.

I feel as though it’s happened,

The inspiration of my past.

The dark stories that would clash,

While I still manage to be glad.

The times I shared my heartfelt stories,

The times I couldn’t even speak,

The times my life seemed like it was over,

The men laying in my sheets.

A woman told me that I couldn’t be whoever I wanted to be,

A woman told me that I’ll never get to accomplish any dreams,

Another told me that I’ll be just like the one I don’t want to see,

And I told myself they could be right,

Life is never as it seems.

One day I realized that my life was going down the destined path,

That day was not too long ago, though I look back and I laugh.

I know that family has a purpose, but I feel mine was to crash,

Crash my purpose and my mindset so that I could never last.

Though they treated me so differently I look to them in happiness.

I know that my boy or girl will see the cries and damaged past,

And though I felt as though no inspiration glimmered in my past,

My mother, grandmother, and aunt showed me that I’ll never end up last.

I have a purpose here to show my child that they will never crash,

That they can accomplish all their dreams no matter who they hear laugh.

It’s hard to take a broken family and bring up your generations next,

But if they didn’t laugh and snicker, I’d have no faith that I could last.

This is not for any awards, or appreciation. This is my self gratitude and something I need to face.

I am tired of letting past women in my life control my every step, if I am inspired by any woman it’s the ones who told me I would never get to pass.

( The artwork featured is something I made to show the beautiful colors of women, and I hope to share this knowing that not all women are negatively minded, but those negative people in my life inspired me to be nothing like them in a sense, hoping that every move I make has an optimistic pretense. )