A Longing and Needing

he was a friend,

always will be a friend.

no nonsense of star-crossed,

no trying to pretend,

we were just friends.

the ins and outs to one another's skin

of personality and secrets we were hiding,

we knew both from end to end.

though we weren't inseparable,

as there was another friend I'd depend,

we stayed loyal to one another

and that's enough.

but things turned cold,

they seemed to always be cold.

my other friend, like life support,

decided to let me go;

leave me in the cold.

she gave no reason on her way out and then,

with no warning, you left as an addition

to the madness of it all.

the screams and shouts I kept within

from being lost for being a victim of confusion with no end.

i could stay loyal to no other

'cause my other I now did not know.

so as time would pass,

always it does pass,

i left my envy with the fallen leaves

from summer on the grass.

it's best to leave it in the past.

the reasons why she left aren't now a myth,

but why he followed I never got reason to grasp with

and I've been sat in wonder ever since.

did you care for me as much as for you I did?

and so A Longing and Needing starts.

A Longing and Needing

my feelings tend to hide

you know that I cherish you, right?

you used to hold me tight.

one of the only ones I'd let inside

to see the thoughts of my mind.

God knows I tried,

you just didn't see her lies.

but that's fine with me

I hope you understand

it wasn't my plan

to watch you hate me

and now that its plain to see

that the devil has meddled

between you and me

that's fine, that's fine with me.

and even though you took her side

I like to think that you

think of me

from time to time,

'cause I wonder if you're happy

with your self-chosen family

even though

it doesn't include me.

that's fine.

God knows I tried,

you just didn't see her lies.

but that's fine with me

I hope you understand

it wasn't my plan

to watch you hate me

and now that its plain to see

that the devil has meddled

between you and me

that's fine, that's fine with me.

if you ever stop to wonder

what I'm up to

be strong enough to ask,

'cause I'm not.

oh I've A Longing And Needing

to know that you miss me.

but I'm oh so sure

I miss you more.

but that's fine with me

I hope you understand

it wasn't my plan

to watch you hate me

and now that its plain to see

that the devil has meddled

between you and me

that's fine, that's fine with me.

- Emerson, @emerson.uk