A Letter to my EX

I was there for you, when no one else was

How could you hurt me, like everyone else does

You promised me forever, yeah you fooled me

You promised a better future...whatever that's supposed to be

Picket fences...a stable home

A place to have forever, a place to call our own

You told me it was me and you

Damn, I can't believe I ever trusted you

Look at everything you put me through

Look at what you did that you said you'd never do

Putting your hands on me and blacking my eye

Telling me how you're so sorry, but you know that's a lie

Two kids later, you still don't knock it off

Can't be a proud man without having to show off

Since you became successful and got this far

You let the money and the cars change who you are

Partying and cheating, drinking with your friends

Covering up your lies, trying to make amends

For years, you emotionally devoured me

Chewed me up and then discarded me

Broke my core, mentally defeated me

Broke me until I hated being me

But, it only made me a stronger me

No longer your shadow that you want me to be

You let your ego and them chicks fill up your head

What about the lonely nights I was crying alone in bed

While you was out cheating, trying to roam

Ignoring all my calls and never coming home

Accusing me of cheating with...every dude

Swinging on me acting like it was cool

Preying on my weakness, soul food for you

Powerless to the demon hiding inside of you

Did you feel strong looking down on me

Standing over me like some kind of king to me

It made you feel tough, huh...yeah I bet

I became so used to the constant disrespect

Karma comes around and you can't run

There's no escaping what you have done

When the moon comes out and you face the pain

Your mind is a constant storm of pouring rain

The guilt and shame never goes away

Not even when the sun rises on another day

Especially at night when you're alone in the dark

And you can't drown out your own haunting thoughts

The doubt and blame starts to eat you alive

It knots up your stomach, you don't want to survive

The truth feels like a scalpel cutting you open

Taking your peace of mind, your heart, and your soul and...

Leaves you feeling empty, broken, and damaged

I speak it because I feel it and I know it first handed

I go through this pain all day everyday

Not because of me, but because of the manipulative games you played

So when the day comes that you think of me

When you reminisce and you miss me

When you know you messed up and want what you had

Just know I'm loving myself now...and I'm never coming back