2 Sides

Split time

Split mind

There's 2 sides

Good side

Bad side

There's 2 sides

How can I close my eyes when I get pulled in 2 directions?

How can I smile & be happy which my negative thoughts seem to mention?

There is lots to smile about , but why does being so happy seems so suspicious?

This person is loving me less or am I wanting more?

There's 2 sides

I'm confused & all alone , or am I pushing people away in hopes that they will understand why I want to be alone, due to the fact of not opening up & expressing myself because I'm afraid someone will tell the world?

There's 2 sides

They call me crazy but I'm trying to become aware of the circumstances that my state of mind put me in.

Unsure of the trauma that eats my soul but to them im bitter and cold

ice cold goes my heart in any relationship/friendship I come across

Hoping the universe will hear my cry & help me defrost

Isolation has become my drive for existence

Hoping to see no one but yearning for that someone

telling them im happy when deep down i feel crappy or just dont feel at all

as confused as this poem may seem or be

This is what living with bipolar is like for me