My Spirit Animal

They say in life you only get one animal that touches you truly to your heart. They are the definition of a spirit animal Bailey was that for me. I’ve always wanted to English bulldog as long as I could remember. I’ve always been fascinated with the breed but like most people I knew that they were extremely expensive so I told myself one day I was going to own one and we were gonna be super good friends. The plan was to name her Bailey. I was 22 when I met Bailey at the time her name was Elsa. She was this small beautiful chocolate brown English bulldog. She was the very first one I met in person and I thought she was the cutest thing ever. This was the beginning of my mom‘s work in the rescue business she was still working with another group before she branched out and had her own. The vets daughter who I lovingly call Dobby asked my mom if we would want her because she heard me telling her dad how I wanted one and she had too many animals as is. My mom said that she would think about it and everything but as soon as I met her that first day a protest couldn’t fall off my mothers lips before I already claimed her as mine. In this instance I know what love at first sight meant because I already loved her in that moment. My mom seen the look on my face and she knew there was no telling me no for this. So as the years passed we grew together every good time or bad she was there for it. So I have degeneration disease so my disc in my back are completely messed up. In technical terms, my L5 disc pushed itself in front of my L4 disc and broke off into 6 pieces or so. Through trial and tribulation she was there for me but She saved my life. I was going through a terrible time in an abusive relationship.So any moment that I had a good moment was rare; but I remember on this particular day Bailey and I were watching TV. Most people one thing a dog would be watching TV but Bailey was more clever than any dog that I’ve ever met in my life she had to be the most articulate dog I’ve ever met. For example you could ask her basic questions that had the answer of yes or no and she would tap your hand of whatever answer she was trying to tell you. I remember we had this awesome day we went on a drive we went and got snacks we just enjoyed our day. I was on pins and needles because I just got tested for ovarian cancer and I was waiting for my results. Fortunately they were supposed to be in that day after waiting a week. I was just trying to distract myself I just remember being with Bailey and we just had the best time and then they called me and told me that my test was negative I didn’t have cancer. I cried in the Bailey’s fur and squeezed her so tight she just rested her head in my shoulder. She was my baby for eight years she passed away this February and I miss her every single day. She was my very best friend and there’s not a day that goes by that I don’t think of her. That memory though of having her with me in one of my darkest hours I’ll always be thankful for that.