Taxes Make Me Feel Taxed

Is there any worse time of the year for a small business person? It always comes down to the question, should I do it myself or pay to have my taxes done? Maybe it's not everyone that thinks that way. I do though because I know that I can do my own taxes. They aren't that complicated. I used to teach a business course so I do know how to do my taxes.

But I hate it. I hate it so much and my brain just fights back when you throw numbers at it. My brain fights numbers like a ninja with her back to the wall.

So, I found someone to deal with it for me. An individual accountant that works from home. Someone like me.

That should calm me down. Knowing that someone else is going to deal with all of this. I'm still internally freaking out about finding all the information that she needs though. Because that's another thing I suck at. Keeping track of things. Like paper documents. And expenses. And what not.

So, today, I'm determined to have everything together to send to her.

That's on top of all the work that I have that is piling up. Sigh. I need to get on that before I am so far behind that I can't catch up. If I'm not at that point already.

Can I just go back to bed and try again tomorrow? No? Ok. Here goes nothing. Let's do this...

Three days later and it's still not done.

Here's the thing - sometimes life is hard. You can't find the gumption to do your own taxes. You have to hire them. It takes you a week to get your papers together.

I think these pandemic times just make everything that much harder, too. People are suffering more from anxiety and having panic attacks. Depression is not uncommon. Our lives are up in the air and we have no control over it.

But we do. We might not have control over the things we want to have control over but we have some control.

We can control how we react to events (or lack of events). We can control what we do in our own home. What is one little thing I could do today to make me feel more in control and more functional?

I can scan the papers I already have ready. That doesn't take much.

It feels like I got little done in the past three days. And it is little compared to what I expected of myself. But yesterday I installed the new printer ink and the day before I picked up the new printer ink. And I wrote 2000 words yesterday. Almost 2500.

I think I need to start writing DONE lists instead of TO DO lists. I feel much better about that.

Wow - that got off on a tangent....

My point is still there. Taxes are taxing. They make me want to go back to bed. But I can't get much done from bed. Life is taxing. Bed still isn't the solution.

One thing at a time. Or wasn't there one dude that gave advice on eating an elephant? One bite at a time? That's life.

So, I'm just going to do one thing at a time. We'll see if that helps with the anxiety! One day at a time. One hour at a time. And if that is too much, one minute at a time.