Splashing My Fear on Those Around Me

Is there something you are doing that is causing you pain? Or stress? Or grief? Or anger? Or non-optimal health?

If the answer is yes, stop doing it. Change your position. Pivot. Shift into feeling good. Change now. Life really is short. There is no space in this lifetime for regret.

It is like when you wake up in the middle of the night and you realize that the way your arm is positioned is causing you neck pain. Your subconscious is so strong, you have been allowing yourself to sleep through it.

You begin to wake up and you become aware of the pain. You may linger a moment before you wake up more fully and you realize that you need to move your arm. You move into a more comfortable position. You do it without thinking.

Taking care of yourself and moving your arm to a different position is a natural reaction.

Sometimes living out self-destructive behaviors is like sleeping. We choose to do so from a different level of consciousness. These behaviors cause us pain, but we keep sleeping. We wake up and we realize that we need to shift and do something different that will remove the pain. If we are deeply asleep, sometimes this requires us to force ourselves to change position.

No one said it was going to be easy.

It is hard to force a change sometimes. When we allow our natural instincts the power to protect and to ease, we are in a better position to feel good. Sometimes the pain may linger for a bit, but it is important to acknowledge even a tiny movement that will allow healing. That first acknowledgement can be enough to shift our energy into a gentler flow.

I sometimes let worry dictate and I remain frozen in a state of fear. When I allow this, I remain asleep. And I still feel the pain. I don't allow myself to wake up and re-position myself. I want different-better. I want to feel intuitively aligned.

At times, I want to stay in the web of dreams that protects me from the movement of change. And I try to release this freezing fear. I want to be warm and fluid and ready to give to another. I want more than to simply pivot from what is now. I want a paradigm shift that will elevate both my subconscious and my conscious to a new level. A better level.

It mystifies me as to why choosing Better can be so difficult. The mind is a powerful tool. And sometimes a weapon. It can feed the loneliest of fears and derail the best of logic. Love can change this pattern. It can switch me to a completely different set of tracks.

I vacillate and I waver and I forge ahead with brave abandon. I strive to be fearless and to live a life based on the strength of love – not on the fear of pain. Where there is love, there is hope. Without hope, I flounder and start to sink and splash my fear on all of those around me.

The simple act of acknowledging these thoughts and then putting them into powerful words contains an element of fear as well. But it is a holy fear. A reverent fear. It is a realization of the consequences that should I opt for less over more, illness over health, famine over plenty, fear over love . . . well, life will not grow me. This requires a transparency that tears down the veil between subconscious and conscious. A relationship between these two that transcends fear and grows trust.

And it is the mirrors that my loved ones raise to me that bolster me into action. They inspire me to wake up and reconcile with that which has been tugging at me or weighing me down or holding me back. Their mirrors encourage me to move forward with grace and humor and fullness.

Fulfillment. I cannot thank them enough for this gift. It is immeasurable and infinite. For this, I feel humbled and grateful as I stretch for better in the (r)evolution of good.