Little Black Book

It was a beautiful day of Autumn the leaves starting to fall for the trees, Sue always love the colours of that season ,earthy colours.

Cooler days in the state of North Caroline were Sue was born and raised in a small town, growing up with lack and scarcity coming for a very poor family, but she was a dreamer …deep down she always knew that more was possible and that is when a book a little black book came into her life and changed her life forever.

Being the older child of a big family made her very responsible at very young age ,but right now at the age of 22 ,She was tired of the life she was living, one question always pops up on her head;

How can I change my life?

One day after her shift in the grill bar where she works for 3 years now, she was feeling a bit heavy headed ,she decided to go for a walk and stop in the local park.

After 10 minutes walk ,she sat down on a bench in the park and finishing the bottle of water she took with her.

Looking at the beautiful sky, being the dreamer that she is ,she starts to demands answers to a higher power.

And suddenly,

Something black caught her attention in the corner of her eye, she stood up to see what it was; a small black book ,an old book under the bench.

She picked it up , there was not a title on, it looked mysterious some how, on the first page was a title or that was what it seemed like.

The power of the mind

Sue was already intrigued by the book ,the autumn breeze blew the book's pages and suddenly stopped on a page where a sentence captured Sue's interest;

"Whatever you believe become your reality"

She read that same sentence repletely thinking how? She could not accept that sentence mentally but something inside her did in that precise moment, something already began to change inside her.

It was Saturday, every Saturday for years now in the beginning it was for extra cash that Sue was helping a local woman Miss Vinson a retired teacher. Because of her health conditions, she needed help with her groceries and cleaning.

Sue loved to spend time with her it was more that a job now ,her knowledge and wisdom over the years helped her in more that one occasion and also knew how much Valerie (Sue had the permission to call her by first name) appreciated it their relationship as she did not have any close family or relatives.

Time went by quickly ,she was distracted by the little black book ,she took the book, put it inside her bag and she hurried in the direction to Miss Vinson's home.

Miss Vinson always waited for her with a cup of tea even in the summer it was her way to welcome her. Before any work needed to be done, they always had pleasant conversations that Miss Vinson started always like this:

"How was your week my dear?"

Today the question was different in the moment Valerie glanced at Sue she noticed something different and she proceeds and ask her:

"what is wrong my dear?"

That was the moment when Sue starting to explain what she had been thinking about for the past week.

"I have been thinking a lot lately," Sue replied.

"About what specific?" Valerie questioned.

"About life ,about my dreams about God" she said and paused.

"Do you believe in God ,Valerie ?"She wondered, "we never talked about it ,did we?"

The talk turned into a deep conversation ,Valerie listened to Sue very attentively, she confessed that she never felt very religious but she always thought that something superior must be there somewhere and also admitted that lately she had been asking for his guidance.

She told her about the little black book that she just found and how intrigued she is about it.

Valerie contributed to the conversation, explaining that she considered herself a spiritual person more that religious one.

After the inspiring conversation ,she did the normal chores around the house and she went to the only small ,local supermarket in town to buy some groceries for Valerie.

On her way ,to the supermarket ,she saw a few horses on the road, something normal, habitual and common to see in the area but for her every time she saw it her heart accelerated. Sue loved horses with every fibre of herself!

That night in bed ,the little black book popped into to her head again and she took it for her bag and started to read it..

The information in the little black book was fantastic more that fantastic was extraordinary! She could not put the book down; the main idea was of course the power of the mind ,that every single human being can create their own reality by imagining it!

How powerful was that idea? One of the questions was:

"What do you want ,really want for your life for your future?"

Sue not only answered it that question in her mind ,she also wrote it on a piece of paper.

Weeks pass by and Sue was following the advice of the little black book:

Focusing in what she wants more than in her current circumstances ,she was writing her dream every night and even imagining herself already there like a dream come true a new reality!

She starting to believe that it was possible, repletely in little black book said to not focus in how your dream become a reality.

Sue felt very hopeful for weeks ,she was sharing all the information and her new perspective of life with Valerie only with her , after all she was the only one that knew about her dreams.

But one normal Saturday morning , she was on her break at work ,when she receive a phone call ,was the hospital to let her know that her dear Valerie past away that night.

How this happen ? Why? This can not be true ,she could not conceived this terrible news. Sue was completely devastated.

The hospital told her that she was Valerie next of kin and that is why they called her, also to inform her that she needs to come to the hospital to collect Valerie's belongings and the doctors we are willing to respond any question that she will have.

She just respond with a low tone of voice, "I will be there as soon as possible, thank you ".

Her thoughts suddenly started spin ,what happen to Valerie? She was that sick to die suddenly ,she could not be dead ,the thought of her not being here anymore was unbearable. Uncontrollable tears started to roll down her face, she cried letting go the pain of her major loss.

Once in the hospital they informed her that a few months ago Valerie was diagnosed with advanced Pancreatic cancer and her life expectancy was between a few months to a maximum of a year. Apparently that kind of cancer was difficult to detect and of majority of the cases are diagnosed when it's already too late.

They gave her Valerie belongings and informed her that Valerie's lawyer will call her soon. Everything about the funeral was taken care of even the date.

Her funeral was planned when she was still alive ,why she did not tell me was the only thought that repletely came to Sue head right now. She wanted to be buried a week after her death. That was exactly three days before thanksgiving. Sue's heart was broken and in that precise moment she realised how much she loved her.

Two days later a lawyer call Jerry contacted her wanting to arrange a visit ,he wanted to see her in Valerie's apartment following day at mid day, the keys of the apartment were with her belongings. Sue agree to meet Jerry next day. She was having time off for work and she was very curious why Valerie had a lawyer and what he wanted to tell her.

Sue arrived before mid day at the apartment ,she was very nervous and Jerry called apologizing ,he was running late.

It was a strange feeling being in Valerie's place without her, big feelings of sadness invaded her heart, but suddenly she remember what she learned in the little black book ,focus on what you want to feel and like a miracle memories ,beautiful, profound ,precious memories came to her mind like pictures and she decide just there that at thanksgiving she will celebrate Valerie life a sense of peace fill her heart.

Jerry knocked on the door , he introduced himself and straight away proceeded to tell her that Miss Vinson left a will and left everything to her name.

Sue was very confused what he meant by everything. There was a letter addressed to her too ,Jerry opened his briefcase and gave her the letter.

On the front of the envelope there was her handwriting.

'My dear Sue'.

Sue delicately opened the envelope .

She began to read the letter:

My dear Sue if you are reading this letter right it now means that I am gone, but remember as your little black book said we are energy and energy can not be destroyed , I will always be close to you, that book confirmed a lot of my beliefs darling ,follow its wisdom for life.

That exact day when you found it ,was the day the doctors told me about the little life was left in me, with my experience I realised that nothing in this life happened without a reason ,there are not coincidences.

Yes, darling what you think became your reality and because you believed, I know you did. Your dreams will soon become true!

Now you will have the resources, the money, to buy the stables ,to buy those horses that you adore so much , to build and create the riding school ,to help your family, to teach your awareness...you will become more because you believe that more was possible for you.

God gave me the answers to my prayers ,because money was never important to me ,coming for a wealthy family but without love ,that is why I decide to teach. To give not only knowledge but love to children because love is the most important thing in life. Now I know that my money will be used well.

Be happy with the little things in life my dear Sue and love with that big heart of yours, I know you will !

yours always,

Valerie.

Once again under the last of the autumn falling leaves, it was thanksgiving and although she was not here with me, I celebrated her life, her presence and her love.