LISTENING TO "THE CALL"

Peace In, Everyone...

It's 2:30 am, on a Sunday in June, 2021... And she does not know why she can't sleep. She’s the one in her family that most often can fall asleep with zero effort on her part. When the body says "it's over for the day buddy" - it's like her internal lights get the signal to just automatically shut off, shutting down her drooping eyelids for hours at a time.

But this night, well it's one of those rare instances wherein she wakes up way too early, cannot go back to sleep, but feeling refreshed. She's likely being controlled by those 'internal mechanical lights' again, however, this time with the opposite effect. The automatic shutdown evidently has a malfunction it seems, and gives her a kick in the butt; an opportunity to begin writing her thoughts down for her next project. (Yes, I am talking about me!)

I look at the statues on my altar and art on my walls, and it is, ‘as if’ they are looking right at me now, and saying simultaneously; "But, but, but! There are no more "buts" going to be accepted today beloved! Do what you are called to do. Do what you've been wanting to do. No more excuses, go ahead now!"

You see, in this 5th chapter of my life, I've been so excited lately about my idea to come out of my shell, so I am putting effort into finding time these days, to sit myself down and write down my plans and goals for the latter part of this year. I even scheduled a meeting with a mentor of the S.C.O.R.E. program who will help to guide me through this process of creating an official business in the health and wellness industry.

I am clear on why I deserve a chance to do something bigger, better and more meaningful than before, therefore I am opening myself up for being more noticed somewhere by someone that will appreciate my services and help me to make a positive difference by investing in my idea.

A LITTLE “HERSTORY” ON MY PROJECT

During one cozy evening in March of 2021, it was one of our movie nights in the comfort of our living room, when I had realized what I had just said- and I smiled to myself… and my husband, seated enough distance away from me to easily see my expression, became tickled crazy; because, as he said, with a loving and pleased smile on his face, “you really are getting a kick out of being free enough to even say and do the things you do today! It’s like you are catching yourself doing something that you would not have even THOUGHT of doing back then, and then you just start coyly smiling.”

He said this with a warm heart and sense of knowing the truth of his words, because yes, he’s right. Even though I do not recall exactly what it was that I said at the time, the experience was a familiar one over the last five years. I will often enough feel free to say a joke, be willfully sassy, humorously sarcastic, or even hint at him in a playful, sensual way; something I would not have even thought to do, especially since I was under the mostly cloistered, disciplined and at times abusive umbrella of my previous relationship. The alternative, new-age, esoteric type monastic life I had lived for nearly three decades was full of many blessings and tremendous opportunities for learning, using our artistic talents to help sustain the community, and scheduled daily meditation times, which are some of the things I loved most about this path.

However, it was also filled with an abundance of violent and negative reactions to someone doing something considered as wrong or making a mistake based on a poor decision... because after all, the rules of the Order were determined and established by one person in charge; the founder and leader of the group, and designed to make it less likely to err … by not allowing you much opportunity to make a mistake or do something he did not want, based on a decision of your own - as all things done required his permission.

It was almost eleven years ago when I left, for the last time, this oppressive and abusive situation that I previously kept returning to, for multiple reasons that I will not go into here. And since then, I have been somewhat slowly (in my opinion) but surely, and quite effectively, been re-building my life while also trying to be here for my youth as well.

I have had several people tell me, including my current husband, that they are amazed at how I have overcome the adversities I have experienced over the decades. But, you see, although at one point I mostly gave away my power, and free will, I have always believed in converting my adversities into an advantage, so I made a conscious choice to come out as more than what I was, at the start of that chapter of my life.

We must find healthy ways to deal with our traumas, and insecurities which lead us to make life choices that result in lots of suffering on many levels. And so I did. I grew more on a spiritual, mental, and emotional level, I realized some of my own sub-conscious, low self-esteem issues, stemming from childhood experiences that allowed me to tolerate certain things that should not be tolerated, because somehow my young mind was led to believe that I was lesser than some others as I grew, or that it was okay to tolerate B.S. from someone that knew more than me, due to my immature perceptions of experiences as a child. It was certainly a healing experience just to firstly become aware of some of those background scripts that were playing in my subconscious mind, because Awareness IS Key!

As I progressed in age and more understanding, I would dive deeply into studying new methods being developed to help people like myself, overcome mental, emotional, and sometimes physical trauma by using harmless, non-addictive and non-invasive methods. I used these methods on myself… and then at any opportunity, I taught others too, how to use these simple but effective tools for recovery.

Therefore, what I chose to do was to take all the positive and helpful tools that I had learned throughout my life journey and use them to help myself AND to help others. I have always had a strong interest and desire in natural healing. Throughout my many travels & chapters in life, I have lived a natural lifestyle to the best of my ability. In order to educate myself, I also earned my Master Herbalist, Holistic Healing Helper, Meditation Instructor, and PLR hypnosis practitioner certification, while also studying several other mind-body connection therapies, that I have used to help myself as well as many others through the years. Because I personally have been using these various alternative healing techniques is a part of the reason, I have been able to adjust fairly smoothly back into the world at large – so, I KNOW THEY WORK .

WHY I AM FOCUSING MORE ON THIS BUSINESS NOW

My energy is one of being of service to others. Heck, as my husband periodically reminds me; “You have been serving, and only thinking about others since you were 19!” because he wants to see me relax & take care of myself more. However, I am now feeling a sense of urgency since I am nearing 60! And since I am still very youthful comparatively, I know that I can now pick up speed and get to doing the things I have dreamed of doing in terms of my offerings. I have some unfinished work to do before I leave this planet. I spent nearly 3 decades learning a few important life lessons and now it is time for me to get to my other project: FULLY ESTABLISHING my Alternative Healing Solutions business online and in person.

My genuine concern & desire to help others that show signs of being ready to take the journey with me, guiding them through the process of healing from the inside out, in non-invasive ways is a part of why I am here. And just as importantly - I have also learned how to detach from the idea of helping someone who does not trust the process of holistic healing, and rather place their trust in the more invasive forms of dealing with health issues. It’s all about their choice. Although I have for decades, helped others to feel better in natural ways, be it mentally, physically or spiritually, I am not an extremist about it! I do my best to educate and inform… then it’s for the individual to choose which direction they will take.

I also have recently been reminded of the positive impact I can make on a person and not even know it, until years after when we happen to cross paths again! Whenever this happens, it of course restores faith and builds confidence up a notch to continue on, and dream big.

HOW I PLAN TO ACCOMPLISH & MONETIZE MY GOALS

I once heard Les Brown say: “If you know your reason for being here – then do something about it. If you can’t go all the way yet, then do little things that take you in that direction”, and that is precisely what I am doing. (I’ve been finding small ways to invest in myself throughout my life journey.) Now I want to take a bigger step forward and begin implementing a plan I have that will provide help to others, on a grander scale, that will result in profound, positive changes in many peoples’ lives. This plan involves taking a CLINICAL HYPNOTHERAPY course, with live, immersion-based lessons.

I intend that I am in training later this year; and even if this does not play out within the time frame I am wanting - that's ok too. It will happen at the right time. Hypnotherapy is an excellent tool for healing because the mind changed for the better is a life changed for the better. There is definitely a mind-body connection at play in our lives. I want to help others to see this. I plan to offer complimentary, group healing sessions to youth in special training programs, to women who are in shelters due to domestic violence, etc.

In terms of monetizing my service, my website will be a membership-based platform. I will offer member only videos, articles, classes and/or sessions. I will offer various health-related products to all, therefore a payment platform that can calculate the appropriate taxes for my sales will be used. I will create personalized hypnosis scripts, which I believe could be offered via private podcasts or recordings. I am sure more ideas will manifest as time goes on.

Oprah Winfrey once said, “I truly believe that thoughts are the greatest vehicle to change, power and success in the world. Everything begins with thoughts.” Therefore it is my intention to help even more people to see the connection between their thoughts and finding ways to become self-empowered, able to initiate powerful change, and to be more successful, in this school we call life!

With all this being said, because I hear the call, and I want to give my all, I am putting my own call out… that I have the support to help me accomplish this goal which is needed to (1) cover my specialized training, and (2) to get my website created with just the right tools to make this dream work the way it should. Then I can begin focusing on serving others in the least stressful manner as possible thanks to the support from others, of a small business such as mine.

If you choose to donate at the end of this post - I am deeply grateful to you. Peace, Light, Love and More Abundance and Good Health to You and All. If you are hearing your own calling, be brave and ask for the help you need - if YOU don’t… who WILL?

Thank you ~ Warmly, Peace Out!

Shakeenah K Fentis - She/Her 6/2021

www.alternative-healing-solutions.com