Letter From a New Me

The year is 1991 its summer time the sky is that bright blue the sun is shinning bright and yellow. I can hear the birds chirping it almost sounds like they are calling my name. Its Saturday I love to wake up early so I can sneak outside on the back porch. I grab the broom as I tip toe down the hall and slowly open the back door. I check once again to make sure no else is a wake then gently open the door making sure it doesn't squeak. Once my 10 year old self is outside I look out into the back yard and I hold the broom as if it is my microphone and I begin to talk. On Saturdays this is my stage as I stand in front of my imaginary audience I present the best speech my 10 year mind can come up with. I even sing a little bit which is funny because singing has never been my greatest gift. However in that moment for those few minutes I can be anyone I want.

I hope you can remember how easy it was to dream as a child to invent your own stage. This was a time when I felt unstoppable. As I got older I would pretend to have my own talk show and my cousins would be my guest. It was a happy time filled with hope and endless possibilities.

Like everything in life you grow up and you feel obligated to be the responsible adult and all those childhood dreams are hard to recall. It wasn't until 2016 I was 35 and my husband was really on me about opening my mind that I could start my own business. He was already in the process of starting a business. I remember the time when he first mentioned this to me I thought he was crazy. He was driving on our way out to dinner. I remember saying that I wanted to buy these leggings I saw online and he says start our own company and make your own. This seemed so far out to me because first off I didn't know where to stat even if this was something I wanted to do and second I didn't have any start up money for a business like that. So I turned to him and said I don't wanna own my own business. I was a little angry by now because his comment had made me think and in that moment I felt worthless as if I had nothing to contribute to the world. I thought that having a business meant I had to make or build something which I could do neither. His just looked at me and said well think about it some more. He didn't just let me off the hook he ask me this every few months until one day I started to really think about it.

It took me 3.5 years to reconnect with my 10 year old self. I realized that I love to talk and motivate others. The next step was finding out how I wanted to purse my goal. This took time and planning. I had lots of self doubt I almost gave up but every time I thought about how it makes me feel to live my purpose I would smile. I could actually see my future self I was super happy, healthy and confident.

Fear is a dram stealer don't let it take your dream. So I say to you today. Do you want to live a life full and rich or a life that you constantly wonder what if? Below some tips that helped me overcome my fear and live my purpose.

1. Find your passion. Give it some really thought. What motivates you. Write it down then start setting your goals.

2. Confront your fears. Get to the root of your fear. Maybe its something someone said when you were a kid. I know growing my mom also said finish high school and get a good job. I wasn't sure what get a good job meant but what I didn't know was don't reach to high.

3. Identify your support team. Who are the people you will rely on to encourage you. What do you need from them. It could something as simple as on Saturday morning I need someone watch the kids for a few hours. Maybe its the fact that you need more help planning dinner. Whatever the need is identify it then communicate to your team what exactly it is you need.

4. Create a positive space. I must say this was so so important for me. With our lives being so busy is easy to let negativity creep or negative people.

If you practice these tips I know that they will help you as much as it helped me.