I have no idea wtf I’m doing... and it’s okay

As I find myself desperately trying to adjust to our new reality it feels as though I am constantly being humbled and reminded by my aggressive mental health to take a breath. Recently I have been overwhelmed by the fact that all while being simultaneously pelted with overall life and the thrills and head aches that come with it, life seem to not be slowing down. I’ve never experienced such a high pace version of life before and I am realizing that literally NO ONE HAS. Im sure the year 2020 has been absolutely crazy for me as it has for a lot of people. During this year we've all experienced a pandemic, historic racial and political movements, and global crisis. We all experienced the same thing and yet will all have different stories. The world has abruptly changed and in order to grow we must adapt. I believe that we all have the power to adjust and grow!

Adjusting to change starts with awareness. You must be aware of your current and conscious state. So much is happening to and around us and we owe it to ourselves not to ignore our feelings; be honest with yourself. As life goes by I am learning that It is okay not to be okay. Although we have to change our lives for a while, some of the changes are for the best. I have never been more in touch with my mind and body like I have right now. I have no idea what i'm doing or what the future may hold because life didn't come with a guide book but I know I must take care of myself in order to receive what is owed to me. Progressing started with realizing that I was overwhelmed. I then started to focus on things that bring me mental relief like cooking and long walks. Whether your mental relief is jogging, knitting, cuddling, baking what ever, I urge you to find more time for yourself to do it. I am a firm believer and advocate of “doing what makes you happy”.

Whether we realize it or not, the trauma from this unexpected life altering as well as life threatening crisis has tremendously shifted our consciousness temporarily and for some permanently. Most of us will never be able to feel as comfortable being in a crowded area as they were in the past ever again. My social life before Covid was already slim to nonexistent and is even more sad post-quarantine. Isolation has a way of encouraging you to re-evaluate your life doesn’t it? Again, I, you, we are not alone. Living through a crisis can be genuinely formative. Since March I have been furloughed, broke, panicked, alone and lost and yet I am still ALIVE and some how stronger than ever. That struggle can simultaneously be distressing, and there is a lot of growth and POWER that can come from it.

Uncertainty is inevitable right now, but we must embrace it. This is a chance for you to grow . Unfortunately many people will not see this as an opportunity to learn about themselves and build but rather see this as something that has put our life on pause and stunted our future. If you have made it this far in the article I urge you to breathe! You are far more powerful than you realize. The first step to conquering the thing that is holding you back in life is to confront the way you feel and why. No one can truly stop you from getting everything you ever wanted but yourself. At the end of the day we end up being the reason for our own demise. Breathe! Your mental health will thank you.