Holiday Time Checkin'

At the beginning of every year, it seems we all choose to make resolutions. Some of us instead of making full-blown resolutions, choose to make one-word 'resolutions.' This was the case with me. See my story written here. What was my word? My word was 'Love.'

Many times those full-blown resolutions tend to fade off into the ethers after a month, maybe two, hence the one-word resolutions. As shared in the story, I tend to carry a small stone with me which reminds me of my one-word resolution. This year it was a screensaver on my phone to remind me to 'Be Love.'

Well, here we are with a little less than a month left in our cultural calendar year. How did you do? Can you make any changes to end the year strong with your resolution? As they say, better late than not at all and give yourself a self-esteem boost before it is another year, with another resolution.

For myself, with the resolution word 'Love' I can say it has been a resounding word throughout the year. There are many types of Love. My favorite has been, "What is the most loving thing I can be or say for this situation or individual before me?"

Sometimes Love means that I need to walk away. Sometimes Love means that I need to drop everything and tend to the situation or individual. Sometimes Love means I must offer some discipline or advice.

One thing is for sure, the first individual or situation I must Love is myself. This has become a self-evident reminder for me this year. As an individual who many years ago has not loved and cared for me, even attempted suicide several times to follow with a complete resurrection, was so in love with me and the world that I spent 12 years on the road teaching self-awareness, caring for and loving oneself, and the animals, it seems strange.

This past year or two has been interesting and tough for many of us. I am no different in that regard. What I did not realize that snuck up on me with my unending dedication to serving, is my judgment of me with all the drastic lifestyle changes, and allowing my self-care to slowly diminish as I was intensely serving these past two years.

This is something that I took a vow to never do again, and yet, here I am. What I do know is that even the best of the best have done it. The slacking off, complacency, and arrogance do catch up. I can recall reading a Wayne Dyer book in a ravenous way sitting in a village in India before my last return to the USA.

He made the statement about how he was now divorced from 3rd wife, in major depression, and realized that he was not practicing what he had been writing and preaching about all those years. The self-care had slacked off.

So, the above statement for me became, "What is the most loving thing I can be, say, or do for me?" Seems selfish; however, what I know to be true, and what all the sages and gurus share is that we cannot give what we do not have.

So, the word Love this year has taken me to the depths of doing my best to let go of serving beyond my own self-care. These past two years have taken me to adrenal fatigue collapse at the end of September. It has taken me to the place of remembering where I have come from back in 2007 and remembering the discipline, determination, and hard work I did to stand back up and become the badass woman that I became, and said I would not let go of.

Well, I have not let go of her, and as Wayne Dyer and many others have shared, "If I can do it, so can you." So, I am grateful for the adrenal fatigue collapse. It completely cleared my schedule, much like COVID has done for so many, which did not happen for me during that time. It was actually a time of a more intense dedicated serving and a complete total lifestyle change from living on the road to living more stationary.

What I know for sure is the 'one-word resolution' is having its way with me, and for this I am grateful. This round of rehabilitation is much deeper than the one back in 2007 and this last month this year I have enrolled in an adrenal fatigue recovery course that will actually take every day for the next 8 weeks taking me into the next year.

So, again, I ask, how is your resolution going? Let's make this last month count aye? And may you love yourself first so that we can truly love others in these interesting times.