Bad Bitch Butterfly.

Do you know if you are this butterfly or not?

I know for a fact that I am this butterfly because I know my worth and the value that I bring to myself and to others. Now it did take me years to recognize my butterfly because I was surrounded by so much trauma. The physical trauma was bad, but the mental trauma was the worst. I say the mental trauma was the worst because you can be in your own head all day long, but if I did not change the way that I was thinking about myself, nothing good was going to happen for me.

Do you know how to release her when she does finally come out?

In the beginning, I struggled with letting my butterfly come out and play because I was so afraid of what others would think, say, and do. I had very low self-esteem, and because I never knew what I had inside of me, the outcome of specific actions and situations was not good. I started feeling guilty for even thinking the word 'No' to anyone or anything that did not serve me positively or productively.

Do you let your butterfly spread its wings and fly like it is supposed to do?

Now that I am wiser and more confident in who I am, I am not afraid to say no to people more often. After all, if they are for me and want me to get to the next level, they will understand that "no" and respect it because they respect, value, and care about me overall.

Do you let others tell you how your butterfly should think, feel, and speak?

I used to let others tell my butterfly how to think, feel, and speak, but now the bad, nasty bitch butterfly has come to the forefront because she's seen others trying to play in our face, like we didn't just see what we saw and hear what we heard. My butterfly is telling me that we can't unlearn or unknow something about a person once they have already told you bluntly who they are from the beginning.

These kinds of people will always be a hell no from me because they are fake, and they never wanted anything good to come your way. In fact, they are watching you make power moves so effortlessly, and they can not seem to understand that you put in so much hard work behind closed doors to keep your nasty bitch butterfly at bay. Then there are those people who watch you to see what other angle they can take to take more from you, as if you are not going to say or do anything about it. Now, by this point, I have something inside of me that is my nasty bitch activated syndrome, and when she comes out, everyone knows, and everyone feels her.

Do you tend to give power over to others unintentionally?

For years, I gave my butterfly power away unintentionally because I had no real role models to look up to, so I ended up giving it to someone else. The other person thought that I would stay broken, mentally drained, emotionally damaged, and all kinds of other negative things, but what they were not expecting was that I would make a full recovery. Once I activated the nasty, bad bitch butterfly inside of me, things started shifting, and I love it. I am keeping the nasty bitch butterfly activation into the new year because I know that if I don't protect my inner peace, no one will.