Attainable Goals

This year, I’ve got three different goals that I want to do. One is to write more. Two is to be a lot more masculine and transition more socially. And third is to lose weight.

First, I’m going to be going back to my normal methods of writing which is using a journal for a first draft. Then I’ll be fixing and adding more words once I get a chance to write. It helps me get better ideas when I can. I can also get better structure when I’m writing in a journal beforehand. It’s also a better way of keeping track of what I’m writing along with name ideas. For several different characters that I write. I’m going to make sure that I take the time to write during my lunch at work. Or before I go to bed as well.

I will be trying to write as much as possible, too. That way I can have more fun than I did last year. Finally get back into the swing of how I used to write. Maybe even going back to w.i.p’s that I sort of abandoned at some point. As I couldn’t figure out how to continue them. Or I just couldn’t be bothered with them. So, I will be trying my hardest to keep writing them and adding more chapters Possibly fixing their plotlines into something better than I had been writing them all those years ago. Hopefully.

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Two, I’m going to try my hardest to look more masculine. As I can’t get testosterone just yet, I’m going to be dressing more manly when I can. Getting my hair cut during the summer months as Winter isn’t the best time to get my hair cut. I haven’t figured out the best haircut for me just yet. But soon as I look something up on Google, I will. And I’ll buy more masculine clothes like I used to wear back in Maine. Might take me a while since stuff is expensive in South Dakota. But I’m determined to make it work.

I also have plans on telling more people I know that I’m a trans man. Those who I know were supportive of a former co-worker and her identity. As I want to be sure that they’re someone safe to come out to. Hopefully there won’t be more customers demanding to know things about myself and why I’m wearing what I’m wearing. I know it’s weird to be afraid of that. But I don’t know how they’ll react. Or how other people around us will react when they demand such things of me in such a manner. But I’m not going to freeze when someone asks me what my pin means. Or what my necklace means as well. At least I’m planning on not freezing up when someone asks me something about it.

I also plan on telling some of my family that live in town. As I feel some of them might be fine with the community. Not right away possibly. But I’m going to tell them when I’m sure that they’re comfortable with the LGBT community at all. Since they could be perfectly fine with the community and everyone in it. And I could be perfectly fine. Though there still is the chance that they couldn’t be. So, I will be waiting for the proper chance to come out to them. Preferably not at my job and not during a stressful time. This year might not be my year to come out to any of my extended family members. But sooner or later, I might be able to come out. Hopefully they will be perfectly fine with me being a trans man. Maybe fine with me being asexual and aromantic. Until then, I just got to wait and observe before I say a word to them.

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Three, I will be walking a whole lot more than I did last year. And eating a lot better than I had last year as well. Tapering off on junk food that I used to eat. No more mindless snacking. Which I know is a huge weakness for me. But I’m determined to break that habit and fix my eating habits as well. This year I’m going to be eating better. A whole lot better. Measuring foods that I’ll be eating and minding the serving sizes. Possibly having a lot less candy, cake, and ice cream after dinner as well. I know this sounds weird, but I’m determined to fix my eating habits.

By any means necessary.

Along with drinking more water than I had been before. Drinking a whole lot less soda than I did last year, too. I have some cool water bottles, and I’m determined to use them. Before moving to South Dakota, I didn’t drink that much soda from what I remember. I preferred drinking water and I’m going back to that soon. And maybe that’ll help with some stress issues that I’ve been having along with my sleep issues.

I’ll also use the treadmill that I got for Winter Solstice when we get it put together. As I can use it after work. And during days when the weather is bad. Like if it’s too warm for me to properly go out. Or if it’s raining outside. I’ll use the treadmill rather than walking.

Along with taking some weight management gummies that’ll help me out. I might even get a few metabolisms support stuff. Anything that’ll help me get healthier than I am right now. I don’t have a specific goal in mind. But I got a few ideas of how much weight I want to lose and I’m going to put my best effort into it. I might even slowly ease myself into my old work-out routine so that I can lose weight faster. Slowly. As I’d rather not harm myself if I go into it right away. Since the last time I tried, I almost hurt my stomach and back. So, it’s much wiser to just ease myself into the old habits that I had from before.

And I’m optimistic that I’ll get back into the swing of things.