A Good Deed Done

I’m in love with the world but scared of it too. Tell me if any of this is true? To be a doer or a person that makes things happen is it not moral to complete this duty with a full heart? A complete full heart where its hard to lose focus on the projective you're attempting to fulfill. This type of fulfillment is extraordinare.

Please, I beg of you. Any & all of “you”... don’t avoid the truth. The truths of the world are here for our own taking. It’s here for us to use and benefit from. It’s here to welcome safety and peace into our lives. It's here to alter our feelings on our outlook on life. I say this to the one's with negative outlooks.

Remember me? I’m the girl that wants to see people being happy or if they can’t be happy I want them to see to believe how content with their lives they could ever be. I get this sense of fulfilment when I attempt to draw others out of their sorrow. A type of satisfaction most won’t understand because they haven’t been being that person.

Not everybody wants to be that person but they still need to still be that person. Not just for their own self benefit of attempting to make the world a better place for themselves but for the benefit of seeing the world change for everyone. The courage it takes and the power being shown makes it all so easy.

I’m not poetic I’m just hurting. Hurting so much to the point where my it’s my mission to stop my world and focus on getting better. Getting better is possible yet i get told there is no hope for me. There is no hope for the girl that wants to make a difference in current day life. Its a tragedy.

Tragically speaking; if I can't be helped then those worse off aren't even getting the short end of the stick, they are getting nothing. It's all our fault. Our fault for not being loving in all ways. For not understanding the mission or so to say the purpose that is set on us to go and love people out of their hurt. To be so loving that the sufferings of the world no longer exist.

It may sound far fetched but its more than possible since bad things occur even greater things can also occur. I mean that on everything. All things good and all things bad; these occurrences happen and the consequences of them never get settled fairly. Whether the repercussions involve mental illness or may charge at somebody's physical health its not played out in a fair way since we people continue to keep doing the wrong that sent punishment our way in the first place!

Now, because I live amongst humans that do not care whether it be about me or major causes I fell into a dark space. I've lived here almost my whole life because even as a child I questioned the world and my existence and the existence of others to the point where my questions were never answered and it lead to me feeling alone. So in my darkest hour I chose myself. I chose myself to be my saviour. Really, I chose myself this time. Its a work in progress but i know my efforts will please me to the point where i notice the benefit. The benefit is so sweet. It is rich in being something that helps me cope. Something that is there to save me from falling in deeper. A complete cliche but its relevant to my life's story.

Since in my darkest hour I was distraught and by myself. I felt like nothing could save me and had no outlets or people to reach out to. I had lost everybody I loved because my choices weren't pure. I was blind to the idea of finding help but the love I needed from myself returned. It returned and I felt a sense of strength I never believed could exist. It does exist. It's all from within but getting it out is my main concern. I am baffled by the idea that other's just do not want me to reach my state of ease. They do this to me and they do this to others including themselves. Its horrible and an act that results in stigma.

I can't tell if it is by jealousy or if it is a form of self hate on their part and that is why they don't want to see people doing well or to be the person that is on the right track. It's a confusing mess of having the question "why?" being asked to something as simple as "allowing" our self and others to live at ease. It's not complicated of a situation to just allow greatness to escalate to the point where that's all we will ever feel. I mean positivity is a beautiful thing I just wonder are we 'afraid' of being in a good state of mind and state of life? A state that is generally supposed to be spread out unto the entire human race as we are one nation that needs all people to behave and focus on reaching that point of better greatness.

I don't care if people disagree and say we as a human race do not deserve to see or seek the better greatness because life is still in rotation and we're all still living here in our existences that ever feel sad about the way of life or feel bitter towards the world for not acting on the way of love. Instead there are people out there purposely causing harm and creating fear that causes the entire audience of who was unfortunate enough to be broadcasted to. It balances out to unpleasant emotions and hopelessness towards our planet, our world, our life, our own self, and all things else.

This was my try to perhaps do a good deed. That is my good deed. My deed to help uplift society. My deed to make the world a better place. My deed to announce safety for all. My deed to conclude world peace. My deed to keep sharing although my audience does not reach everybody. My deed to keep on trying even though many may not benefit from my words. My deed to show the world love.