I know everything

Now, I know everything, but I've been scared for days. I feel so sad that no one can understand my feelings. You know what? All this means that next semester I will be separated from my good friends and study in parallel classes. Sitting at the window, looking up at the stars in the sky, I wonder why the stars are so big and shining today. However, on this quiet night, my heart can not be at peace. I thought about my life in Class 17 this semester, and about my closest friends. I suddenly felt very sorry for them because before that I had promised them that I would never fall off and never leave Class 17, but now I had dropped out of the major class because I missed the final exam and went to study in the parallel class. At the same time, I also feel sorry for my mother, because I once said to her this sentence: Mom, please believe me, I will never let my ranking drop. As a result, I went from 175 to more than 560. This gap is hard for me to accept. Although I want to escape, it is a fact that I have to face and I have to pay for it. Late at night, I lay on the bamboo bed, unable to sleep. The wind is blowing gently, and a fragrance of flowers is coming. "Why aren't you sleeping?" Mom whispered behind me. "Mother." I could not bear it any longer, and the tears fell from my eyes. Baby, what is this? Why are you crying? "I cried again. Mom, I'm sorry, I failed the exam." My mother touched my head and said, "It's okay, it's just a mistake." I have faith in you." That night, I shed tears and slowly fell asleep. But in my sleep I cried again, and my pillow was wet with tears. When I woke up the next day, I rubbed my eyes and found that my heart didn't hurt as much as it did yesterday. The alarm bells are ringing in my ears again. I will try my best to go back to my old class 17. Please believe me.Looking at the students' diaries, the immature and grateful words made me feel gratified, and I couldn't help but think of the scene in class yesterday. Yesterday, we learned the essay "Told" in the first comprehensive exercise, which wrote about the mother's repeated maternal advice, the child was dissatisfied with this at first, but later understood the mother and was full of gratitude to the mother. After the first reading of this article, I let the students talk about their feelings, but the students feel more or the children of the mother nagging boredom, perhaps the mothers love nagging, perhaps the students have the same feeling, but the nagging and contains the mother how much love ah, I must let the students have a correct understanding of this. So I asked the students to read the text and find the sentences that expressed the author's thoughts and feelings. After careful reading, most of the students found the author's mother's understanding of the sentence, but still a small number of students found that the mother's nagging sentence, I then asked them to explain the reason, when Jin Jin replied: "You see, 'mother's advice, like a regular program broadcast on the radio." I'm gonna listen to this show forever... It shows that the author loves to listen, and is actively listening, how can this be boring?" He Yang also stood up and said, "Look, he is talking about mother. The voice is "kind and gentle voice, and guide us to grow", which does not understand the mother's love for themselves? At this time, the students suddenly realized that the students combined with their own practical talk about the benefits of mother told, such as "told to recite words, the result of dictation full marks." "Told to take an umbrella without being rained", etc., when the students talked about their mother's love for themselves, the words were full of happiness, I did not enjoy the children, and let the children write a diary at night. Today I see the children's understanding of maternal love, is the deep love of mother, at this time I have been satisfied.