What next?

It all started roughly three years ago. I was feeling under the weather, so per some family and friends pleading I agreed to go and see what could be going wrong. I told the physician I was not feeling very well and had no energy at all. They did various tests, and lab draws but still couldn't find anything. This went on for a while, finally after another ER visit the Doctor comes in and tells me that the lower half of my right lung had calcified granulomatous , and that they didn't know the exact cause but I would need to be scheduled for follow-ups. I went and they then told me that the lymph nodes in the Digestive tract was also calcified, as well as the spleen.

I had a series of Doctors naming whatever they thought it could be, they would always tell me that my labs came back normal, other than the elevated white blood cell count. I began at this point to become very agitated and a little depressed, 4 CT Scans in a year and they weren't giving me very clear information on what could be done with it. "Now I'm living in the unknown." I thought to myself.

The following year it hit me hard, everything I ate did not stay down, constantly in pain, so my Doctor had me come in three days a week still no results finding the cause. All they can say is it is possibly from an inherited Immune Disease. I felt my energy go fast, I couldn't stay awake for nothing, didn't even feel like going out and doing the things I enjoyed doing.

It is frustrating when we put our trust in somebody to find out what is wrong and find no results. Every once in a while a CT Scan would show some abnormality but still no treatment was done. I was on the verge of just saying forget it. I kept going, doing everything I could think of not to let this mysterious condition knock my spirits down.

Whatever goes on in life, just remember you are not alone. If I have learned anything from this situation that is to cherish each moment I have with the ones I care about, and love because tomorrow is not promised it is only a gift, because we all are living on borrowed time. Somedays I wish I had the energy to climb a mountain, other days I just want to lay there and not do anything but instead I do what I can in order to not get in that phase of "I can't" and in the phase of "I CAN" attitude. Life may not be easy for me at times but each day is a blessing for me because I overcame yesterdays obstacles, and ready to face the challenges of tomorrow.

If you have an underlining condition that seems to make it hard to bear with or even seems impossible to get through just remember you can. It is funny because I used to take life for granted but living with this I now have the chance to enjoy what life has to offer. I hope that this helps you understand more about some of the joys in life. There is actually a wonderful improvement in our medical science. More and more techniques and technology is making it that much more easier to deal with. You are as young as you want to feel. Take it easy and not rush through life, I have learned that with this mysterious condition of mine. I often used to wish I was invisible or biotical but what would be the point of that. I am merely just a human being, living in a world filled with the unknown.