My Spiritual Journal
Part 1 Spiritual Journal When did I awaken?

Hello, welcome to part 1 of my spiritual journal, I have chosen to expose all my juicy stories that have led me to where I am. This is the beginning, however I will never have an end to this path, yet I might not remember every path I take, well I believe in more than one life, somehow that makes sense to me, and thousands of others, in this path I've been reading, writing, and living through trauma just like most, yet less than most.
Do I have a religion? No, I can't begin to understand how we can be blinded by the beliefs of control, first telling somebody how to live or they will die and go to hell is far out an evil I believe walks our home, an energy that gives a mind set that can influence a lot, the reason we forget who we truly are. However, these are my beliefs whether right nor wrong, I must share, a life that is unknown to most, Spirituality is a way of life, a connection, whatever you may choose, some understand spirituality but still choose religion, but..........
What is spirituality?
For me spirituality has been a connection I've created with my god aka the universe, I'm doing my research understanding what resonates with me, I am here to state the fact that spirituality is different for everyone you are not wrong, as I am not as well. At the end of this path I will leave and then start a new one and on each path I will rediscover who I am, wherever I am.
Love, will guide me through this world, as it will guide you as well, Unity is something we all should strive for, we all go through our own BS, but why can't we learn to help each other without hate, can we walk among each other.
My first memory, was that of a blue sky, knowing I was in a stroller, being pushed by my mother, then it was like I went to sleep waking up in different phases of my life. Child years, teenage, and now Adult years, always I have felt a feeling of having a light on, but I could control that switch.
4 yrs ago 5 months apart both my mother and brother passed, this pain triggered something, within me something had changed, the light turns on, and hasn't gone off, 4yrs ago initially when my mother passed I was living in Oregon hiding from her death, as it was happening I continued to live, when I got the call I knew she was gone, my mother had sent crows to fly over my head the same time she died I looked down at the time "3:11." From this point on I was different more aware, now I seen I wasn't happy I hid in pain for 20 some then yrs, so let me say each action has energy linked to it, bits and pieces we collect, store it in our brain for memories, but when we do this we attach to trauma, anger, hate, the reasons we start to feel enclosed is because of this energy. yes we can also attach to the more positive energy, not everyone does though, most have trauma in some form I have yet to meet anyone who hasn't been hurt in some way.
Now for me spirituality has shown me that I have an ego, we all do, we accept the life experiences as to who we are, when you say this " I am a genius, because I know all the answers" that is an ego, because of the action of getting all the answers right, you then label yourself "Genius."
The question for me is What kind of label would I want to be given to me? and all I can say is none, I just want to be seen as a human, that isn't good nor bad, I have choices I've made in the past not always those we label as good. If we label our self we create a blockage, energy that is linked giving off a vibration giving us moods, I would see myself as a failure, then I would be depressed. So I would basically label myself and make myself sad doesn't make sense, the thing is we all do this, some unaware, now me being aware I now know I am awake, aware of what life is, and my role is important, I create actions, then energy, that emits off into the world. Now balance is good for all we balance our energy, its not about bad nor good, I don't think we want to cause a polar shift.
below is something that helped open my third eye. one of seven chakras we possess within us all linking to our organs. Research is key to wisdom.
Meditation is a tool I use, a lot of others around use this technique. Meditation has health benefits, linked to history dating to Egyptians, and Hinduism, many more practice this method. What I do is quiet my mind, usually I meditate with music so surrounding noise, I don't acknowledge it since I can't hear it anyway, really focus on my breath I just quiet my mind, there is more you can add to the practice, but basically for me I found it was more about quieting my mind, yes overthinker, but who isn't nowadays all we can do is think. So relax your mind and body, literally just sit and breathe. #selfcare
This is where I end part one, Spirituality has led me to an awareness, we are a conscious within this world we all matter, all of us have a purpose we shall live.
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I am a soul with a purpose, not sure if I finally found that purpose or not, But I do have a passion for writing, creating or acknowledging what exist..... Just read what I write, who knows you might like what I have to say.




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