Journey through the Quarantine

I’ve been drowning myself down in the river with the two meters apart from my love ones or be millions miles away; so I tried to soothe my soul but it’s taking me under the waters, taking me deeper than I choose and I can’t see it any clear or the way out. Down here underneath the surface I said you’re my only hope to get me out of the deep depression and anxiety that’s coming creeping in.

If you remember me now and let everyone else can forget. I hear you say “why does everyone else need to forget”; just tell them that I have nothing more to give to this fight of the unknown disease that we can’t see, it’s like me saying I’d rather go blind than watch you walk out of my life and not come back making me turn my face up to the sky face full tears you know that we all cry. I know my heart is on the line as the love that you have for me and the rest of us as we get left behind; as we watch you from the doors of the hospital knowing that you may not come back, I can’t let you go not just yet and I’m not ready. I know that you can hear me crying in my sleep.

Tired of the injustice, the schemes and the lies are disgusting because what does that mean? I would like to know because it’s kicking me down no matter how jacked up it is. It’s still comes back in the full circle of life of the racism world; the whole system sucks still damn it, everyone who were peeking in the shadows have come into the light. No matter how many times you tell me that I’m wrong; you better prove me that you’re right; so many lives are already being lost with the pandemic, you’re selling out more innocent souls being spilt and I care about mine. Knowing that I’ve got to get stronger and won’t give up the fight.

In this crazy world there is so many confusions to the point that it just makes you want to scream with frustration. Making you scream more when you find out so many people bashing, abusing and victimise within the schemes that have been put in place. You try to cope with every lie that has been told has been scrutinised everyone else takes it out on the police, hospital staff, firefighters, paramedics and politicians due to this pandemic.

Somebody, please have mercy on us all because I just can’t take it anymore of not being able to seeing anyone or anything it’s pressuring me to the point of making me want to scream. Doesn’t all of this make you want to scream? I’m sick and tired of telling you the story your way as it’s confusing me and everyone else. Yet you think it’s okay I can’t take it much longer. I think I might go insane.

Put your faith in what you most believe in a bit more longer with the two worlds into one family. Trust your heart for the reassurance at the end of the day you have to let fate decide these days now more than ever; you got to follow the guidelines. These lives that we see today who have lost their lives are now free from pain and suffering they can now touch the paradise on the other side that has been untouched by a man and within this world blessed with the love and more importantly is strength know you’re safe.

A simple life that I wish we could live in peace without any worries one bit. Treading on the soft sand below your feet right now would be nice because the two worlds we are currently in now; we are so desperately want to go back to the world we once knew but right now we have to trust our heart to let the fate decide, and see what the lives we would go back too once this is over.

Beneath the shelter of the trees only one love that can enter that can lead a simple life they can live in peace from all the pain that had to endure.

Raise your head up lift the high load by taking the strength from those that need you the most build the walls with strong beams because there’s a new life waiting; yet there’s been no stranger to danger here, no words that can describe the mothers tears that fall down their faces. There is no words that can heal the broken heart from this for unseen virus, race of humanity and most importantly from the wild fires that has happened. A dream has gone that they visualised yet where is the hope that we are longing for.

Somewhere in this world that something is calling for you because in these crazy times having two worlds but one family. I have to trust my heart and let the fate decide to guide these sad times we can see in front of us.