31 years old and adult life sucks

I wish I could find some better sounds that no one has ever heard along with a better voice that could sing some of the words in the english language a whole lot better. I just wish that I had found better chords for my music than are not like anyone elses. I remember my English teacher saying that everything has to rhyme in poetry and especially in song writing.

You’ll get the one person that tell you when you get older all of my fears would shrink. Congulations people who told me that. I’m now insecure and I’ve now started to care what people think.

I wish that I could wind back time to the good old days on my grandfathers clock where it was time for bed when my mum would sing me to sleep or read a bed time story so I wouldn't have to be so stressed out then. Now I'm here in the big world I'm so stressed out.

I wish that I could wind back time to the good old days on my grandfathers clock. Sometimes there's a certain smell that will take me back to when I was young; yet now I can't remember or to never be able to identify where it's coming from? everything seemed to be blurred and I can't access it from my memory.

If I could find the distant smell from my childhood that smell from that product or area I would so make a candle out of it. I would also try and sell it. Hopefully never sell out of it and keep some back for myself. I would be like my brother or sister wearing the same clothes with the homegrown food, stones thrown from a creek that we found and used to roam. It would remind us of when nothing mattered.

We didn't have to worry about mortgages or rent, council tax and many more when we had tree houses that we could use all year round and it was for free.

Just the other day somebody a stranger in fact had once said to me this in a bar. “Hey maybe you’re slightly schizophrenic and a little out of reach my friend” my answer to this was “yes that’s partly true haha, but all jokes aside and I can explain. It’s just my way of keeping track. Have you turned on your tv recently? Have you seen the reality?

Everyone is so stressed out. Russia and Ukraine at war with each other. Queen Elizabeth II platinum Jubilee then a few months later the Queen had passed away. 70 years on the throne and 7 decades later. You’ll be amazed by someone who can live so long thats been through so much in her rein you can just about manage the stress. Cost of living is going up. Fuel is going up. You might as well go back to horse and cart at this rate.

I am just a blurry face and I care about what you think. I just wish I could turn back time. To the good old days where my mum use to sing and a bedtime story; we wouldn‘t care back then what other people think, now I am so tired of other peoples opinions that weren’t even asked in the first place.

I wish that I could wind back time to the good old days on my grandfathers clock where it was time for bed when my mum would sing me to sleep or read a bed time story so I wouldn't have to be so stressed out then. Now I'm here in the big world I'm so stressed out.