What I Did When My Body Gave Up Before My Dreams Did
For the ones whose ambition is stronger than their energy this is what almost broke me, and how I rebuilt.

There’s a war that happens behind the scenes. It doesn’t trend on social media. It doesn’t look glamorous. It happens in the quiet moments, when your mind is still chasing purpose but your body is waving a white flag. I was that person. The one with the late-night dreams, the endless to-do lists, the goals that made my eyes light up. But then something happened. My body stopped keeping up. And it nearly cost me everything.
I Was All Hustle, No Balance
I used to wear burnout like a badge of honor. “I only slept 3 hours.” “I skipped meals to finish my work.” “I don’t have time to rest, I have dreams.” At first, it worked. Success was addictive. I got applause for my productivity. People admired my dedication. But what they didn’t see was the shaking hands. The random blackouts. The missed periods. The panic attacks that came without warning. I was achieving… But I was also quietly dying inside.
When My Body Said, “Enough.”
It wasn’t dramatic. It was subtle at first. I couldn’t concentrate. I’d sleep 9 hours and still wake up tired. My skin broke out. I couldn’t hold a deep breath. My bones felt like bricks. Then one day, I collapsed. I didn’t faint. I just… couldn’t get up. No strength. No clarity. No power. And the scariest part? I still thought I was lazy.
I Didn’t Want to Slow Down—So I Crashed
They say, “If you don’t choose to rest, your body will choose for you.” Mine did. Deadlines went unanswered. Calls went ignored. I couldn't even cry, I was too tired. The part that hurt the most? I wanted to work. The dreams were still there. The fire was still inside me. But the machine carrying the fire had short-circuited. That broke me more than anything else.
What Helped Me Rebuild: Slowly, Gently, Honestly
a. I Started Listening to My Body Like a Language
I used to ignore fatigue, pain, and brain fog. Now, I saw them as communication not inconvenience. My body wasn’t failing me. It was screaming for me to listen. Every time I felt off, I asked: What do I need right now? What’s this tension trying to protect me from? Am I pushing to feel worthy again? The answers shocked me.
b. I Learned That Rest Is Not Laziness—It’s Strategy
I realized I wasn’t lazy. I was overstimulated. I didn’t need more hustle, I needed nervous system safety. Walks. Warm meals. Stretching. Boundaries. Stillness. And I hated it. At first. Because when your worth is tied to output, stillness feels like failure. But slowly, I began to heal. And with healing came focus. With focus came momentum. And with momentum came sustainable progress.
c. I Restructured My Life Around Energy, Not Just Goals
I stopped making daily to-do lists. I made energy maps.
Mornings = creative work only
Midday = food + rest
Evenings = no work.
Weekends = sacred.
I started asking, “Does this cost more energy than I have?” before saying yes. I lost some people. Some money. Some speed. But I gained my life back.
Lessons for the High-Achiever with a Tired Body
If you relate to this, here’s the truth no one told me: The body you burn for success is the same body that will carry your success. Health is the foundation of every dream not the delay. Rest isn’t earned. It’s required. If you're constantly tired, it's not a mindset issue. It’s a nervous system screaming for help.
Let This Be Your Permission Slip
You don’t have to hustle yourself into illness. You don’t have to prove your worth by ignoring your body. You don’t have to collapse to feel seen. Your body is your compass. Your energy is your currency. Protect it like your future depends on it because it does.
One day, I’ll reach every goal I’ve written on my vision board. But I’ll get there rested, hydrated, balanced, and whole. Not broken. Not burnt out. Not barely breathing. This is your sign. Breathe. Take a break. Feed your body. Turn off the noise. Your dreams can wait for a healed you. The world needs that version of you not the exhausted one you’ve been pretending is okay.
About the Creator
Zanele Nyembe
For the ones who stay strong in silence—I see you. I write what others are afraid to say out loud. If you've ever felt invisible, abandoned, or quietly powerful, this space is yours.



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