Push beyond your comfort zone

The most powerful weapon in the world is your brain. Once you put away your phones, computers, and other modern conveniences which is great because we're modern and you know yourself your brain is all you have when you're depressed, going through a difficult time, or facing death you can't Google that man; you're alone.

You may have a best friend or a shrink, but there are twenty-four hours a day that you're alone in your brain, where it's talking to you in a variety of ways, wanting to control you and draw you into these various pockets. The only thing I knew back then was that hard work was the only way anything gets accomplished.

I'm not getting how I can't get this paragraph; I can't remember what this paragraph is to pass this test to get the National Youth Service breathe again; I'm still not getting it read again, but it's not getting it. If you can't control your own brain and your brain controls you, you're you got to tell your brain where you want to go, how you want to go, and how you want to get there, you got to control it. If not, it's over. write it down, and that's when I began to realize, "Well, I can't.

I have to write down everything I do." You can probably predict what occurred next. I understand that I am negative buoyant and incapable of swimming. I will return again and again. I understand now that if I keep going back, going back, going back until this just becomes your mind was safe, okay, we're going to figure it out because he is not going to stop. It's like, "I'm going to try one more time, no, I'm gonna it's just like long clock goes off, Boop, we're going back, I can't read right, we're going back." I gave myself no way out, and my mind realized that they said, "Okay, we're going to adapt and overcome now, like a lot of people say trying hard they your mind knows man, it knows this guy's bull guys lying there's no truth behind it.

When I was a National Youth Service trainer, I trained people, and I thought, "Oh, how are you there for 18 months? The program is always six months long. You spent three hell weeks in a year? No one's ever done that, how did you do that?" I was thinking, "I never want to go back to that little pieces, but if you go back to that seven dollar month place and you realize this is where I live, that's all I got. Your mind says Roger that this is home." Thus, when I was enduring the difficult parts of National Youth Service training for eighteen months, I told myself that this could be a long journey because my body was breaking down.

I realized that this was my new normal, and my mind said, "I'm going to suffer every day, like you go to work, put on your suit, and suffer from broken feet, stress fractures, and shin splints.” This has become my new normal, and your mind tells you that if we're not broken, then we must be broken. At that point, your mind becomes more and more tough, asking questions like, "How did you run on broken feet, broken shins, and broken feet?" My mind realized that this is how we function because we're National Youth Service trainees, and that's what we are in terms of health. That was my mindset, and that's how you get through things: you put yourself, you immerse yourself wherever it is that you become that you become, and you give yourself nowhere.

I loved God, but for a brief while I became the devil because that was hell. I also became the CEO, the boss, and the owner of National Youth Service training. Yes, at 97 pounds, I was quite obese and attempted to enlist in the National Youth Service. The most terrifying thing I have ever experienced, even to this day, is the possibility that I could have lived that entire life. I reasoned that since I was working so hard and earning KES.50000 a monthly on being a casual employee, I was at my full potential. However, a few years later, I realized that I was not even close to that weight when I graduated from National Youth Service training and realized that we don't do all these other things.

That was me trying hard, and that's how people came to understand what was inside of us until we start trying hard really trying hard enough that we become fixated on the idea that this is our new normal. People hear my tale and assume this person is sadistic. My new normal is that, gosh, this isn't always pleasant. It's not always meant to be fun, and that's when you know you're trying hard. I'm a fearful child, and that's what gives me so much strength. I had no basis, so I constructed this off of just studying the mind. The feeling you get is essentially invincibility.

I've realized how the brain works. you realize that you can't do it all the time when you need to do it I know I can go to a place that I can live in and when you know that you can run on broken legs and you can do certain things that a lot of people can do but they're not willing to do this power this sympathetic nervous system of fight or flight and you're fighting it gives you this charge of energy over when you're sitting there at 3:30 4:00 o'clock in the morning and you're duct taping your feet up because they're broken .

You're doing it by yourself and you're going to do arguably one of the hardest training in the world and these guys most of them are healthy and you're going through it broken and you already at a disadvantage but you're still there you can feed into that and tap into that for a lot of power but if you look at it while I'm broken man like I'm not gonna make it if you look at it as man I'm broken and I'm still here and I'm fighting.

I'm gonna find a way to get through this because I have no other place to go it gives you a lot of power when things start to suck really really bad my brain and a lot of people's brain DUP they don't go to your dad beating you up your brain says win it right here this is miserable so anger goes away a lot of times when you're suffering because your brain that says we got a run we got to go so that anger is not popping up saying oh I'm gonna show them I want to show those people no there has to be a much deeper if I say deeper it has to be down to mineral mineral soil it has to be down to that nice mineral soil where nothing can burn you can't burn dirt so it has to be down that low that literally is submenu that's at the core your soul and but you but you don't find it unless you spend a lot of time with what you want to be in life you I can't give that to you right you can't give it to somebody when when you find your true passion in life and my passion for me when like I want to be now given my National Youth Service s I mean roundish I want to be a proud citizen of the Kenya , serve my country, and look at myself in the mirror. I was so disappointed in accountability, man, and in what I saw on a daily basis.

I wanted everyone to love me, and many did, but I also knew that many of us wanted to find peace first. That's why I'm going to say, "Man, you always talk about this suffering and pain is." I'm at peace right now because I'm going to do that. If you don't find peace first, Merry Christmas and more power to you. I found peace on the other side of finding myself, and nobody truly finds themselves without going through hardships. Being accountable for doing what's right for yourself and the people around you every day is painful; it's difficult to know even the smallest details you