How Something Sweet Can Kill Me Yet, I Want to Eat More of That Cake

The weight doesn't stop growing like the love I feel for you. When we are in love, we say the cheesiest things, and when we are in love, we also eat a lot. I know I do.

And now, I am about 30 lbs. heavier than where I was at the start of the year. Between my grief and moving forward, I have gained weight, my "Kummerspeck." Part of me knows that sugar has retaken hold of my body, from those little cheats here and there, the cakes, the ice cream, and the chocolate bars.

Now my body is looking for sugar, and it has to stop if I want to start living a healthier life.

Whoever said the quote below is a genius.

Your body isn't Amazon Prime, it takes more than 2 days to get what you want.

I am fat, fatter than the last time I talked about my weight and what I plan to do with the excess weight.

Here I am again, and it is still true;

I am fat, and I have no excuse.

My plan was simple, lose 20 pounds in a month. I know it was doable because I had done it before when I went all-in with the "keto diet."

But sadly, it didn't happen, and the 20lbs has gone to 30 lbs. I am unsure because my weighing scale is broken, but I can feel it and look very much it.

As Amy Berger or TuitNutrition said in her latest video - Break your fat loss stall workshop, we are all diet veterans and diet professionals.

While it never really bothered me how I look, especially now that I am 52, I can feel the difference when I was 30 lbs. lighter.

My blood pressure is up again. Even with my maintenance, it hovers been 140/80 to 150/100.

Coming from a family with a medical history of diabetes and hypertension, I have to watch out for my numbers.

The sad part of diabetes is that there are no clear manifestations that you are metabolically sick. I know my Mom had it in her 50s, and the complications of diabetes resulted in her Chronic Kidney Disease and, later on, the need for dialysis treatments.

And while Mom was never obese and never ate disproportionately to her size, she loves great food. She fancies Spanish food and sweets, just like I do.

Joint Pain

Everything is happening again. When I wake up, I experience joint pain and headaches. As I type, I can feel pain in my fingers.

What did I eat the night before?

A piece of cake.

Even when I sleep early, I would like to lie in bed again after a few minutes after waking up, and I am lethargic.

And if I don't watch out, there will be more nerve pains, joint pains, and constant headaches.

I stopped experiencing all of it when I was 30 lbs. lighter, when I was eating low-carb, and when I wasn't eating sugar.

Keto Diet made simple.

The more complicated a diet becomes, the less likely you would be able to keep it.

What is the basic Keto Diet?

The ketogenic diet (or keto diet, for short) is a low-carb, high-fat diet that offers many health benefits.

Following the Atkins Diet, it is a low-carb diet with more emphasis on protein and fat. The ratio is where people get confused and abandon the diet before they see the results.

When I first tried keto, I was strict about my carbohydrates intake, never go above 20 grams.

Whatever is left, the ratio is 70–30 in favor of fat over protein.

There are many schools of thought when it comes to what is the right keto diet, and just to put it here, I am not a medical doctor or a nutritionist, what I am about to share are all based on my personal experience.

If you are obese or have a medical condition it is best to see a doctor, as while I can vouch for Keto, I also know it may not be best for everyone, but if you are only trying to lose a few pounds, there is a wealth of information that you can find from these people, who I follow and who share their knowledge on both the keto diet and the low-carb lifestyle.

The Writer's Diet.

I need to make it as simple as possible, so my diet plan starts today.

1. Drink water as soon as I wake up. Usually, I set the alarm for 5 a.m.
2. Delay coffee 3 hours upon waking up.
3. Continue to drink water and try to consume a gallon of water a day.
4. Delay any food until I have answered the question - Am I starving? Three times.
5. My meal plan would always include egg and protein, eat until satiated.
6. The time between meals should be a minimum of 4 hours.
7. Drink coffee to the heart's content.
8. No snacking.
9. Eliminate sugar.
10. Be kind when I falter.

You can't have your cake and eat it (too)

It's an old saying, and while I can't say I will never eat another piece of cake. But, I will try my best not to eat anything with sugar.

I am just one of those who are sugar addicted. And I want to acknowledge that fact, as it will frame my mind into taking action.

For the most part, food gives us comfort and sustenance, but most of the time, we give in to comfort and forget the sustenance part.

We use food to fill the void in our lives, and I have no judgment for anyone who does because I have done it too.

When Mom passed, friends would send me food out of their love, and even I have ordered the food that I have shared with Mom in the past.

Food isn't our enemy or even sugar. Both can do good things too, one can never go on living without food, and for some people with diabetes, the difference between life and death is when they are experiencing hypoglycemia or when the blood sugar drops so low is a can of soda.

It is our relationship with food that we need to change that I need to change.

Final thoughts.

When we go on a diet, it has to be because we want to be healthy and not because we want to fit on to a smaller dress and not for someone else.

Also, we need to love ourselves at any bodyweight, as we get older weight is just one of the things that will change, our looks, our thinning hair, we will soon be not the same young person as we are right now.

We need to embrace ourselves as we get older, but we need to start making healthy choices today for us to get older.

There are no shortcuts, and while it is possible to lose 20 pounds in a month, our bodies do weird things that sometimes the weight doesn't go off, even with the strictest diet.

When it does happen, that is the time to show kindness to yourself, even when you failed once and eat that piece of cake,

Remember, we only live once, and it is better to eat that cake than not to have taken that bite, and the same goes for love and life.