What it Means to Let Go and For Once Focus on Yourself

I've always been an introvert - a quiet girl who never needed much from people except peace. But somehow, from the time I was little, I became a people pleaser, always pouring from an empty cup. I spent years trying to fill a void I didn't even fully understand, only to realize later that some voids are not meant to be filled - they're meant to be released.

As a child, I was always "Chubby baby" - the cute, round-faced girl who attracted attention, but not always kind that felt safe. At school, the teasing started early. Kids called me names like "fatty," and I quickly learned to shrink myself emotionally even if I couldn't shrink my body. At home, the jokes continued, especially from extended family who acted like it was harmless. But deep down, it planted seeds of shame in me.

In high school. it didn't get any better. Society painted a picture of beauty I didn't fit - thin, light-skinned, and flawless. And I believed it. I tried so hard to become someone else, someone more "acceptable." And in doing so, I stopped knowing who I really was.

I entered a relationship very young because I thought, "if someone sees me now, I better not waste the chance. I may never be seen again. "That belief trapped me in cycles of over-giving, over-apologizing, and under-loving myself. I didn't know my worth - I only knew how to cling.

Marriage followed, but instead of finding peace, I found myself giving what I didn't even have. I was apologizing for things I didn't understand. I was silencing needs and dimming my voice. I gave money to people who didn't deserve it. I loved people who never poured back into me. And when I needed emotional and financial support the most, they were all gone.

That was moment I truly hit empty. Not just tired - but dry. Emotionally, spiritually, and financially dry.

But God...in that emptiness. He made room for rediscovery.

I started cooking more. Simple meals at first but full of intention and soul. Each dish became a form of therapy, a new way to pour into myself without guilt. I slowly embraced the fact that it's okay to be an introvert. It's okay to like small circles, quiet days, and your own company. I stopped apologizing for needing peace. I stopped trying to explain my kindness to people who took it for granted.

And I stopped questioning God for taking everything that was binding me with all of those people at first I thought it was an end of my World and Life but when a new me keep on developing I realised that it was never my life or my world everything that I had was built on lies and from money that I personally didn't work for it and didn't fill any void but it kept taking everything for me emotional damage me, and mentally confused me and left me empty and broken spiritually, so God didn't take anything from me but I'm working progress and it a vision that was meant for me before arriving in this World with no shame . Mel matters.

This is my season now. My soft era.

Mel comes first

Mel chooses herself

Mel protects her heart and her finances

Mel still gives - but wisely. With boundaries.

And Mel's heart? Still kind. Still sweet. But finally whole.

Letting go doesn't mean becoming cold. it means reclaiming the warmth you always gave others and finally giving back to yourself.

Freedom is what you give yourself mentally, and emotionally that power of being free and have a peacefull life. you come first

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