There Is A Light

I am seeing everything clearly now. I’ve been watching services of a pastor talking about God. He’s been opening my eyes to see that we are containers and it's up to us what we choose to represent ourselves as. I am not a believer of “we are nothing without God” because everybody's something. It’s a matter of what we do with this something that we all are. No I am not a Christian but I agree that there is a creator. I know because she talks to me through everything and everyone. She’s in us all, and she loves us all. If she didn't, all of us wouldn’t have had a chance to be conscious. I say if you’ve had a chance to live she’s definitely put thought into your existence. Some people don’t truly believe in her or know her, but that doesn’t stop the love that she gives. When the pastor said “without God you are nothing” I thought no. We’re all something; some of us just don’t know it yet. It’s not until we recognize her, that we realize we are something. We can live in the illusion that we’re nothing, we can think or believe it, but it’ll never be true because there’s always someone outside of us believing something different. I see this is the beauty of life; this is the meaning. Perception, realization, sight. What we see is what becomes true in our lives, but it doesn’t have to be true in other people's lives. I love that; I love how I can see other people’s greatness before they can. I love that I can acknowledge it and give people their flowers. That’s because I see the beauty in myself. That’s because the forgiveness and grace I’ve given myself is free. Whilst other people’s love and grace comes with a cost. Not to say this is wrong, but I see life becoming easier when I can have the grace to let go of people’s flaws and my own. I’m not here to be perfect; I’m here to be me. I’m not here to be right or seen by anyone other than me. I love this new era I’m in; this era of self discovery. Thank you, Divine, for always bringing me back to myself. Thank you for the ups and the downs, thank you for this roller coaster we call life. You’ve been so good to me; you’ve created me to see you. Not everyone gets this luxury so I thank you. There are some days I want to give up; some days I want to give life back to you and sleep peacefully but I comprehend why I’m here now. I’m living in gratitude now instead of despair and anger. You’ve helped me overcome this; all I had to do was ask and you were there. I’m glad you see me worthy of help. I’m glad you see me worthy of forgiveness.

For anyone reading this, let love in. She’s on the other side waiting for you. It’s not about other people accepting you or loving you. It’s about you accepting and loving yourself. I know that may seem hard right now. You’ve probably done some terrible things you don’t want to face. The conviction can be a lot. Let the shame and guilt in; accept what you’ve done so you can release it. Life isn’t about holding onto your mistakes. It’s about learning from them. Seek help if you feel like you're addicted to chaos. All you have to do is call on her and ask for her help. Ask for her forgiveness. She lives in you and she feels your pain; she can take it away. You don’t have to feel alone because you’re never alone. She sees everything and she knows everything. Maybe you’ve ventured deep into the darkness and this is all you know, but maybe these passages will help you see that there is a light. Your demons will show, but show love to them too. They need it as well. You’re worthy of light in your life even if you’ve been dark to others. Divine only knows who I used to be and she still deemed me worthy. Whatever you’ve done is worth forgiveness. I promise you.