My workplace, how they handled my miscarriage

This is just me venting. I am not the type of person to make a scene and ask for any pity or sorrow. I am a very strong person mentally and I guess you can say physically too since I do work out until I'm about to throw up. Anyways! I don't want to disclose where I was working but I will include that I was working at a casino. This was about 5 weeks before my wedding day when I had my miscarriage at work. After about 8 weeks of my pregnancy my doctor had told me the pregnancy wasn't going well and that I was a high risk for a miscarriage so I knew/was prepared for it to happen. I kept my hopes up high though and thought the baby could pull through. Finally the news and day came when I went in to get the last ultrasound and my babies hearth beat was no longer. I was 1 day short of being 13 weeks pregnant. My doctor told me my options where to take some pills to pretty much dilate and the fetus would exit my body in 1 to 2 days. The second option was to get surgery to have them vacuum it out. The sound of going under was crazy for me so I decided to go with the pill option.

I started work at 6pm that day and I just left the doctors office around 2pm. There was this rule at work where if you called off you would get pointed, regardless of the situation. Once you reached 12 points you'd be terminated. I only had 4 points in the 3 years of working there and I thought I can go to work and tell them my situation and they can send me home because of my medical issue. NOPE that did not happen. I told my manager in front of 2 other coworkers that I am having a miscarriage and my doctor gave me pills, please let me go home. I told him I'm scared and prefer not to work right now, and that I don't think its fair for me to get pointed right now. In the 3 years working there I only called off twice! Never went home sick! Never left work early ever! I was late about 8 times, but never over 15 minutes late, in 3 years I don't think thats too crazy!

My manager said if I left it would be considered job abandonment and that I would lose my job and have to take it up with Human Resources to try to get my job back. I thought wow such bullshit! So many other people in my department go home early constantly lying or faking a sickness for a simple stomach ache and here I am literally bleeding to death and you're telling me I'll lose my job now if I go home.

I went from sad to mad to completely wanting to kill my manager with all the anger I had in me. I could not believe what I was hearing. I should of just called out like a normal person!

I tried calming down and tried to convince myself that this was a normal thing and that there was nothing I can do. I couldn't afford to lose my job and now I'm bleeding really bad, I'm embarrased by beyond now. I suck it up and do my job walking around for over 8 hours and in pain. I can't lie and say it was not painful.

Because of this I believe I can do almost anything because of the physical pain it caused me.

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