Misguided beliefs 📋

I was sitting at the bus stop waiting this woman starts speaking to me out of nowhere. At first the conversation is friendly, she is an African American, and I'm mixed not that I am concerned about that.

"Hi what's a professor like yourself taking the bus."

I start to feel embarrassed, "Ma'am I'm a student not a professor."

As the conversation starts progressing she starts asking questions common to most people, almost slightly personal.

I didn't want to seem elusive to her questions.

"What are you studying at Cleveland State?"

"Social Work, I'm a freshmen."

Again as the conversation seems to keep going decent up until I overshare about my job history. I don't know why she wanted to know so much. The woman sitting beside of me seems to sit uneasy like I feel.

I don't know how McDonald's was brought up.

"I went through four hours of training, they never told me my schedule or anything. I never even received my last paycheck."

When the conversation starts to become very thick.

"They wanted me to cut my hair or put it in a military bun. Cover my tattoos, and I didn't like that."

"Well obviously you didn't want the job."

The girl across from me speaks, "I understand how she feels she shouldn't have to change her appearance. I work at McDonalds on the westside, we don't have to cover our tattoos or cut our hair."

Heavy debate brews between then.

"But she is white privileged."

I looked at her dumbfounded, "Ma'am are you kidding me? Nothing is handed me I worked just as hard to end up where I am right. I came from nothing."

"All I am saying, hun, is you came from the country everything came easy to you."

I start to lose colour in my face contemplating everything I ever went through right down to the r*p*s, being homeless.

The girl across from me I know she lives in my neighbourhood.

"You don't know her story, just like you don't know mine."

The woman got off the bus so quickly, and after she got of the bus shortly my stop came the bus driver practically kicked me off the bus.

I am not white privledged, first of all I'm mixed not that race has anything to do with. This woman doesn't know my story from Adam. I think that's what bothered me the most.

What if my misguided belief is I am privileged? If so my life should has been easier. I'm not privileged at all. God don't I wish things came easier to me. I'm struggling with missing my husband, I need a job, I can't go on vacation to see my husband. If things came naturally to me I want the following already:

1: My husband's green card: I would have this months ago.

2: A job: Something that brings me a great distraction.

3: Not feeling like an outcast: Which is partly by choice because I don't like feeling like I'm surrounded by fakes.

4: YouTube Channel would take off: If things came natural to me I wouldn't be struggling I would be already at 500 subs and earning a good second income.

5: My husband wouldn't be suffering right now: If it were up to me, my husband and I wouldn't be struggling and have our rental still in Glasgow Hill.

6: Two income household: If only I made two thousand more I would be a two income household.

In conclusion, How dare anyone say to me that I am privileged and I have it easy! I bothers me so much. Please do tell me that in the comments below!

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