Memories: 17 May 2025

17 May 2025

8:46 am it’s raining again. I just woke up. There’s blue skies so the day holds promise. Shabbat Shalom! May we merit our long awaited yearned for beautiful lives. The gods have our backs, fronts, and sides!

Grateful happy woman here!

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Kermie the Indian ringneck and Beau the Cockatiel’s first afternoon out in the sun. Happiness is fresh air and sunshine in your feathers. Mama T is going to join them with a nice cup of tea and sunshine in my hair too.

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8:15 pm I am exhausted. I spent the afternoon drilling holes in the top of Kermie’s cage to hang his swing, bell and toy from. Only to discover the hardware didn’t fit the nuts etc… arggghhh.

So I brought both birds back inside and went to Bunnings to buy the correct fitting hardware. I get it home, tear the packaging apart…all excited about completing my mission, only to discover the holes I drilled are too small for the new o-ring bolts.

Farrrrkkk!!! But it was now birdy num num bed time….so I have to wait until tomorrow (if it’s a nice day to put both birds out in the garden in their cages so I can go back in and drill larger holes. So I can have everything schmick for my new boy!

So feeling thwarted and frustrated, I got out the IKEA wooden crate from under my spare bed and spent hours screwing little castor wheels to it so I can move it more easily. Then I remembered I had two more wooden crates in the laundry, (I only had another set of wheels 😞) so I dragged out, washed it then waited for it to dry slightly, then screwed on four wheels onto that.

Then put all my paints and brushes etc, in a very Tetris-ey but completely rational order inside the crate…then worried it’s not fully dry so it might get mouldy.

So I left it in the room to dry out more before I trundle it under the spare bed. I am gonna buy another set of wheels for the third crate. I am “nesting” like I am about to go through another cataclysmic massive change.

I get like this….don’t worry…The Tanya never goes anywhere… but if I ever do, I will be super organised. Hilarious!

I haven’t even bothered with dinner…I feel so “supercharged” mentally, albeit physically depleted. It’s incongruent!

Time I pushed myself back out dancing too…but not tonight. Maybe next weekend. See what’s on offer!

17 May 2024

Today I coated my bronze torch with one coat of Protectaclear so it will no longer tarnish. Two or three more coats to do.

Jarrod visited in the afternoon. We drove to Officeworks so I could pick up the beautiful selfie that he had made for Lyn’s birthday present. Then we looked around Garden City.

Tonight I am going dancing at the Brooklyn Standard. Alter Egos are playing. I’m looking forward to dancing again.

17 May 2023

Today was a lovely day. I had a visit from Lyn who brought me lots of clothes that her neighbour Annette wanted me to have. She also brought me potato and leek soup (which I had for dinner!) and a lovely beesting cake and some rocks for my collection. Wow!

Then I had my debrief with my psychiatrist. We talked about the devolution of our planet and the constant pernicious fearmongering which is helping breakdown our already fragmented society.

The latest evil bullshit being the claim that AI intends to annihilate humanity in 5 years time. It just enrages me as it’s such an obviously wicked Agenda. Especially riding on the back of covid and the war in Ukraine. A seeping evil without end. Well…somebody had to stop it.

I got harassed by hooning teenagers on my walk around the block. So I reported them to Police Link but that will probably yield no results.

In the evening I washed a few loads of the clothing Annette gave me, then cooked a nice dinner. I felt calmer and resolute.

17 May 2021

7:44 am I just woke up not long ago! Wow. I am so tired but full of transmutations and excitement about life! (Even waking up early which is just so astounding!)

I am going to finish off my cutlery box today! I hope the glue has worked! I need to buy my own large adjustable clamps in case I ever do a similar job.

Just so satisfying! Even though it was really hard work cutting down the brass edging and grinding the sharp edges off.

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I had to give the cutlery case a second coat of resin and I still have fine hairs stuck to it. So I give up. It just keeps messing up! But at least the top is glued down on three of the four corners. One is a bit lifted up as I did not have enough large g clamps.

So it’s a bit of a schamozzle! I will finish it off tomorrow with the brass edging.

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17 May 2018

17 May 2017

Wow! Loving the pics from Finland, Amsterdam, Paris. I have Facebook friends posting from Europe so I get to Armchair travel and rejoice in their journeys. Amazing!

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I had a lovely day out at West End with Terrie. I bought a few magical herbs to do an exorcism of my mother's spirit that has still not evolved or moved into the Light after 7 years.

It is going to be hard as I still sit on her couch, eat off her coffee table, my house is stuffed with her white elephant furniture and China that no one wants to buy. Hmmm. She blocked me from success, happiness, true love and prosperity in life and she is still riding like a hell hound on me in death.

Her words "I had high hopes for you" dripping with sarcasm and contempt are proof she is still dogging me. Ghastly (my former sister's favourite word)!

I also bought 2 small Himalayan salt candle holders. I am going to purify this house, and my heart and soul so I am never affected by her or her minions ever again!

It is interesting she came through to demand "more chances" after I finally sold ie let go of my engagement ring which she had demanded my husband buy for me (as she did with my former brother in law) as an extension of her egotistic narcissism. Perhaps the last of the horcruxes or I am getting closer to freeing myself from her curse by now? One can only hope.

Anyway the gods (angels) are with us. In particular the Norse gods lmao. Terrie took me to a bar which is owned by a Norwegian guy and I took a photo of her with a troll ornament they had as decoration . Then later in the afternoon we went to Telstra and the young man who was helping Terrie was named Thor! I had to laugh at the synchronicity.

Update 2019: Getting rid of Mum’s old couch in February this year was the best decision! My house feels much lighter and I am feeling happier and freer.

Update 2020: So relieved that after throwing out Mum’s couch in February 2018 that Mummy Dearest finally backed the fuck off. Life is finally free and beautiful but now we are dogged by another global evil spirit named covid. Psy sighs. Another hellbent exorcism and get rid of the Agenda 21 co-conspirators.

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Another gorgeous day in paradise. Feeling excited about nothing in particular. Still squeezing air through recalcitrant lungs. The Tanya pre-eminently dragged through Life kicking and screaming, coughing and wheezing, giggling and smirking and often knee-jerking, heart trembling, Berserkering but never a Jerk.

The Force is With Us all. I have a dead mother's spook trying to drag me down to Limbo with her. That woman will never cease to be my Albatross. I exorcise her to wherever Hashem in Genderless Infinite Wisdom wants to take her malicious envious spiteful Soul.

At least she no longer falsely professes her undying Love which was a smokescreen to hide her true hatred and evil intent. A relief actually.

I don't ever want anyone (man woman/child/animal/ghost or ghoul to Fake their love for me ever again in any lifetime. Fake lovers have utterly destroyed me. Fake people sicken me to my core. Traitors/liars/artificial faces with artificial hearts manufactured in Hell, too many. Hosts of legionnaires. I rebuke Thee all.

It is another day in Paradise. It is a day I create as I walk away from the haters, disbelievers, frauds, and shed that cloak of muck and ruin that was thrown upon me from my birth. "We loved her" they clamour, greedy soiled hands stretching from the ether.

Love?!!! They knew not its truth or beauty nor its ferocity or its eternity. Never thrown aside by a buck from a wild stallion. Never destroy each other in vainglorious lust/greed/envy. That is not love. That is a mockery. A sham that caused deep shame.

Love? Love. Love!!!!!

I am Whom I becoming. I am the Love that was never given to me freely or beautifully. I am The love that waits patiently for the One that aligns perfectly with my own heart and mind, body and soul. Too late. Too old but there are other worlds and other lifetimes where we might yet meet each other.

Meanwhile I rejoice with my remaining true loves. Fur feathered souls of Light and a few rare and precious humans.

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I feel like going out. But where? Hmmm.

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Beauregard just found a dead ring-tail possum that was missing its head. Something ate it. Horrible! I have just buried the poor creature. Sophie and Penny were inside during the night so that leaves one suspect.

Hmmm. Sophie had the "4 am frenzies", hurling herself around the walls this morning but I just rolled over and went back to sleep but kept her inside. I need another collar with two bells on a certain killer fatcat!

17 May 2016

My legs really hurt at night. Especially on the bruised areas on my shins where I tripped over the bamboo I had cut down, in the dark night. It must be arthritis. I get fatigued really easily too.

I did have another yummy dinner, from last night's leftovers. Still 6 drumsticks left.

Bobo is chewing all the plastic wrappers I hid from him inside a basket on the coffee table. His mouth has to be constantly gnawing on something. I gave him a huge bone today. He is such a brat.

He woke me up today as I lay sleeping with little Mushu curled up in my arms. Mushu was so happy he had his paw on top of my arm and it was a nice snuggle. But Bobo wanted us out of bed so he stood beside the bed at whined at me.

This was at 1 pm. Fair enough. I had a busy afternoon chasing scoria and finishing off the aquaponic bed.

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The scoria has shredded all my finger nails. Working woman's hands but a labour of love. I hope the lettuce, cabbage and broccoli thrive.

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5.55 pm. Wow! I have just come in from rinsing 4 more bags of scoria for the aquaponic vege patch. Nearly killed me but it is now complete and I am very happy with the result. The vege seedlings are all planted out. It looks very cheerful.

Bunnings at Mt Gravatt East were rude and sent me on a wild goose chase around the store before they bothered to find out that they had no scoria. They said they were busy with renovations but I find them rude and arrogant quite often.

They always act as if I am about to steal at the checkout or they give shit customer service. But I got in my car and drove to Bunnings at Capalaba and got my stuff there. In and out. No trouble. No harassment, no ignorami.

Then schlepped it all home and went to work rinsing. It took me 3 hours. But everything is done. I might have to buy a better quality pump though, as it keeps clogging. See how I go for a few more weeks. I still need to set up the small shower tub pond under the stairs.

I also need to find a place that sells Zeolite by the bag as the blocks I use cost too much. Other than that all is lovely at Sacred Space.

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Tired but happy. My optometrist woke me up. I made an appointment for next Thursday. My eyes have deteriorated to needing my reading glasses almost all the time.

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Last night Jarrod and I finished the aquaponic pond. It is working well. I still need to buy 3 or 4 more bags of scoria but it is almost ready.

I made a yummy chicken in Apricot nectar dinner. Then we finished off the night by watching tv. I got so tired that my bones ached.

It was a beautiful night with a waxing full moon, stippled with a cloud that looked like it had been painted over the top.

Harvey and Bobo had fun chasing toads in my heliconia garden. We had to keep calling them out of there.

17 May 2015

I am so tired I can barely speak or Facebook. I danced from 10 pm and came home at 6 am. I had a lot of fun talking and laughing with Tichsia, Ellie, Joan and her new friend Tony this morning.

I got home, let the chooks out, fed the goldfish and hit the hay. I woke up at 6 pm.

Big roadtrip tomorrow for Crystal, taking her beloved rabbits back to Grafton Rabbit Sanctuary. If I had won that $800 I could have gotten enough money together to keep them by taking over her business registration. So upsetting. I guess I would have had to hire clowns to operate the business anyway.

17 May 2015

17 May 2014

Last night, Friday, was Awesome! I had so much fun! It's nice to make peace and just let everything hang out and just go with the flow. I had the best time with all my favourite girls, and my italian friend.

Dancing really hypes me up though. I have been euphoric all day and didn't sleep much. I don't mind at all. It's nice to be delirious with Joy instead of Depressed.

Life is so full of Potential as my encounter with Phil from Yorkshire on Thursday reminded me. I have definitely released some major blocks this week, so that has had an amazing effect!

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17 May 2013

Lyn and I went to see Metamorphosis, starring Crystal Arons and produced and directed by The Basics Project. It was wonderful and we thoroughly enjoyed the wonderful acting and the atmosphere.

I encourage all my friends who are Brisbanians to see the show, not because I am a Biased Stage Mother but it really is great!

We followed up the play by having Chocolate at Max Brenners at Portside Hamilton. A lovely evening!

17 May 2012

Hi Tanya, thanks from us both for your thinking of us she is a bit better today but it's early days and know worse to come over the next few days. it would be great to see you again, we're sorry we can't get to you.

fond regards,

Mel and Kay.

Me: Hi Mel and Kay. I will try to come see you next week. Currently dealing with severe back pain and emotionally shattered from losing my fight for Justice in my mother's Will Dispute. Lawyers wouldn't fight on as they wanted money so all I get is $59k after 2 years of humiliation, lies and slander from the Scherers. So I will come see you both when I am feeling well enough. Hugs Kay, keep fighting on Honey!

17 May 2011

Feel rather tired after a meeting up with my cousins in the Myer Centre and then sort of trotting around the Queen Street Mall in a daze lol. Happy to be home actually.

I got nothing done that I planned on. So now I have to go and get stuff tomorrow. Where is my head? I did manage to get some lovely new sheets on sale in Bed Bath n Table though.

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