Journal Entry: Thurs. June 2nd 2022

Thursday, June 2nd 2022

I wake up and transfer the money from my old account to my new account hoping it gets there in time for rent.

I brew a Bones Coffee Co. Carrot Cake in my Powell's Bookstore mug. I watch a few episodes of The Whiskey Vault on YouTube.

I eat oatmeal with protein powder, cinnamon, agave, blueberries, and peanut butter. We really need to go shopping, but we don't have the money. We need: mandarin oranges; bananas; cream cheese; tempeh bacon; Just Egg folds; bagels; English Muffins; kitty litter; blueberries; vegan ranch; milk; carrots; spinach; and vegan cheese.

I shower with Bourbon, 2-n-1, Head and Shoulders, Shampoo/Conditioner. Then I lather myself with Duke Cannon Buffalo Trace Bourbon Soap and rinse. I then smother myself with body wash: Duke Canon THICK Bourbon Bodywash. After rinsing I rinse my hair. Then I use my Duke Cannon Buffalo Trace Bourbon Plant-Based Beard Wash. I rinse. I dry and comb my red beard with its elegant white streaks. I sit in the bottom of the tub and just think about things for awhile. I let the warm water wash over me, as I contemplate oblivion. I am quite frightened of oblivion. I used to want to die so badly all the time. Now that I finally have my life together my body is doing it for me. I survived suicide and my own brain for this long and now cancer is going to take me. This is so fucked. Every day the pain gets worse. Tylenol and Ibuprofen doesn't help.

I put on Axe Apollo Fresh Stick, because they were out of Phoenix.

I heat filtered, water to 170 Degrees Fahrenheit in my black, Fellow EKG Gooseneck Kettle and steep two teaspoons of Sencha Fancy Green Tea for three minutes in my Mike Wazowski mug. I purchased the tea at The Tea Table online. I highly recommend them.

I journal and post on Vocal. Then I try to get some writing done.

We watch some more Sex Education, but then I get sleepy, so I lie down and listen to various Angel Olsen albums on Spotify.

I don't fall asleep. I just kind of lie there on the brink of conciousness listening to her soothing sounds.

I get up and check the mail, and then take out the trash.

I brew a freshly ground Bones Coffee Co. Mustachio in my Z's Divine Espresso mug.

Shelby watches Love Island (UK), while I sip coffee, journal, and listen to Angel Olsen's old stuff.

We order Sweetgreen from Studio City. I get the Shroomami bowl. Delicious.

We start watching Funny People. It may not be my favorite Judd Apatow film, but it's probably the best Judd Apatow film. I'm not a huge Adam Sandler fan, but I like him in his more serious films.

The food comes, and we feast.

After we finish the movie, Shelby watches Love Island (UK).

I shower with Bourbon, 2-n-1, Head and Shoulders, Shampoo/Conditioner. Then I lather myself with Duke Cannon Buffalo Trace Bourbon Soap and rinse. I then smother myself with body wash: Duke Canon THICK Bourbon Bodywash. After rinsing I rinse my hair. Then I use my Duke Cannon Buffalo Trace Bourbon Plant-Based Beard Wash. I rinse. I dry and comb my red beard with its elegant white streaks.

I put on Axe Apollo Fresh Stick, because they were out of Phoenix.

We watch some Sex Education on Netflix.

Then we go to bed.

We talk and cuddle for a long time, before we drift off.

And that's it.

That's my day.

That's Thursday, June 2nd 2022