Job Hunting

You know what I love?

Not job hunting, that's for sure.

I mean honestly, how many job applications does it take to prove to your parents that you are trying to get a job. I would honestly like to know. Because I have a list of jobs that I've applied to, a whole spreadsheet, that is almost completely filled top to bottom over the last couple months.

And that spreadsheet also tells me which jobs I got a response from the boss, which jobs I got to be interviewed and which jobs I never heard from and never will.

Which is honestly fucking soul crushing. I have poured months into getting help from employment centers and even with their help.

Nothing.

Nothing to show for all our combined efforts.

Did I mention I also live in the middle of fucking nowhere?

Yeah, I live out in the middle of nowhere surrounded by farmland with the nearest town in either direction is a 15 minute drive away.

And I don't have a vehicle of my own.

Which means the nearest town is actually a 2 hour walk away.

Now here's the real fucking kicker.

I have a job that's in the town over. A 2o minute drive away. A 4 hour walk away.

I had access to a car for a whole month, but guess what?

You have to insure a car for 3 months minimum.

So what did my dad, who claimed he was supporting me do? He took the license plates off the car and hid them. Under the suspicion that I'm lying that my schedule hasn't been posted and that I'm not actually employed.

To make matters worse, both my bosses won't respond to my texts.

So now I'm terrified that I have no job and the closest job in this back water little no name town, is of course the pub.

Now I don't know about you, but I personally don't want to work at a pub. I'm not comfortable serving alcohol. I'm not comfortable around anyone who's inebriated.

You know I'd like to have a job that was online? A job online that means I can stay home and still work. That would be wonderful.

But guess what?

That's right. My access to the internet is constanly under threat by none other than my parents. Everyday is the same thing.

"You're on the internet too much."

"We're shutting off the internet. You never do anything else in this house, except look at your phone."

"Why don't you go outside? Why don't you go over to a friends house?"

I don't know, maybe it's cause we live in the middle of nowhere with no access to the outside world through any other means. Maybe cause all the things I want to learn I can't learn from you or the library here. Maybe cause I only have 1 friend who lives 2 towns over and you hated the fact that they were my friend since I met them. Maybe because everyone who lives around here has the same small talk options like goddamn NPCs.

Maybe cause the only way to look for jobs nowadays is to use the goddamn internet.

So.

Job hunting is stressful.

Job hunting is just another piece of stress in life. So now it's just figure out where to go from here.

If you're job hunting too, I wish you the best and that you get that interview for the job you want. I'm pulling for ya.

And if you've read all this, thank you and take care.