I am Loonatania

I am Loonatania 

I always wanted to entertain the world with my stories and talents. Since I was a little girl, I loved to make people smile and it would make me feel good inside. Like spark's coming out of people's eyes to give them every reason to laugh and live a good life. Growing up, I had a dark side of my childhood that wasn't always pleasant behind closed doors. To remove that horrible things I saw in domestic violence, I would look at old classic cartoons of Looney Tunes, Popeye, Betty Boop, old black and white classics, Disney films Bambi, Dumbo, Pete's Dragon, Mickey Mouse. I loved Wizard of Oz, Mary Poppins, Who Framed Roger Rabbit, Space Jam, Jurassic Park, Twister and Annie and I loved the magic behind it and it fascinated me. I would mimic the characters voices and act out with my toys. I loved the most was how they had live action and cartoons blend together and it's silly. I used to believe it was real, but only to realize that I was disappointed to find out they weren't real. One day what really caught my eyes was when I decided to watch the credits from Bambi and then I saw something on the VHS, I never saw before. It was behind the scenes in the making of Bambi. I was in awe how they put the pieces together and I thought it was beautiful. Learning about Walt Disney's company and watching them paint Bambi and the landscapes. They would use actual Deers to sketch on their movement and how it would work during the film just like they did for Lion King and other projects. After that every VHS that had special features I wanted to learn more about animation. I also later watched how the Twister film was made, oh man, that was amazing. CGI on the Twister was beautifully done. Roger Rabbit really fascinated me the most. I also learned how people would provide voices for cartoon characters and I love it. 

Although I would watch the films but, everytime to TV would go off, hell breaks loose. I was badly abused by my ex stepfather. You would think I would cry  every night before I went to bed. Well…  Sometimes. I would come up with stories in my mind and voice every one of them. Or sing to myself, "Tomorrow", songs from the movie, "Annie." It used to make me feel better. One night I wrote my own lullaby song, "Sleep little bunny don't you cry. Mommy's gonna hold you in her arms." It used to soothe me so I wouldn't think about something bad that would cause me bad dreams. I used to have a lot of bad dreams because of the abuse and near death experiences. Not only was I being mistreated but, I was strangled by my own Ex step father and was left there to freeze to death. I was later found by someone who drove through and called an ambulance and police. I slapped out of it that day and realized the nightmare had finally been over but,  being traumatized and shocked from it, I wouldn't speak for months. I'll never forget the first time I spoke again was when we were living under a protection home, watching Pocahontas. I sing the song, "Colors of the Wind." Then having a Pocahontas doll on the same day. I was so excited I spoke, yet again cartoons made me happy. 

I was 7 years old when I started to pick up on drawing cartoons. I became so obsessed that I kept practicing every year. I became a huge fan of Dragonball Z, Pokemon, Monster Rancher and Sailor Moon and other anime shows. Loved the action in the shows, then was introduced to Cartoon Network watching Hannah Barbara cartoons,  Scooby-Doo, Yogi Bear, Tom and Jerry and modern shows. I had trouble with writing at first till I was in 3rd grade. I grew up having learning disabilities like speech and was slow with different subjects. I started out only reading kindergarten books by the end of the year, I never gave up on myself and I succeed reading to a 5th grade reading level. I remembered cheating, trying to draw a kitten by using tracing paper over a book. I was tired of drawing stick figures and wanted to teach myself to draw. By the end of 3rd grade, I succeeded on both tasks. I wrote a short story about a puppy and kitten, where once enemies and they became friends. I was very proud of myself. I remember how happy I was but, only I was held back into a regular 3rd grade class. I still didn't give up although I was disappointed but, then I realized it only gave me new challenges with Math and other things I was never aware of and was never taught in special classes. Again I pushed myself to do better. I was fascinated with computers and how I was learning so quickly to learn. My mother had encyclopedias about animals and I would read all of them and also learn to draw them. I didn't start drawing humans till I was in Middle School. A young girl in my class and her older sister, I became friends with, they drew anime characters and taught me every after school. After awhile I started getting good and decided to put my design mixture of Looney, Hannah-Barbara and, Anime and Dragon Ball Z style. Throughout middle school I started having problems at home and bullying during school. The only thing I would do to cope was to draw and write. Every time I draw and write, I always feel closure and always thoughts of what life would be like with adventures to get my troubles out of my mind. 

At age 13 years old, I was being abused and molested by an ex nextdoor neighbor and I would draw or write as a cry for help. I realized because I had so much passion it was enough for me to fight for survival. My Papa who was alive at the time taught me to draw as well and taught me to be strong. Before he died of lung cancer, I drew a lot of drawings for him and wrote for him to be happy. He died when I was 14 and because of grief I still kept drawing and writing to keep that promise. Since then, I've decided to fight my way to be strong and I started to write stories of a young heroine of a fictional, sci-fi, action, fantasy adventures. Now that I'm 29 years old, I'm still writing my story to this day and wished to even publish my story called, "HUWAN". With my struggles for the last 3 years, I couldn't work to save up to publish my first book and also struggling for my over voice work as well for my love to entertain. I will never give up my dream and continue to be passionate till I have kept my Papa's promise. I'm Tausha May Henry a.k.a. LoonataniaTaushaMay. Support for Delta Ashtra Thora Universe! I am Loonatania!

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