Hosteller’s silent birthday

Hosteller’s intimate birthday

Um…back to routin-ized birthday!!!

It’s indeed my birthday and I love to keep it minimal and realistically simple so I asked my roommate beforehand to call some of my friends (about 6) and I myself chose my birthday cake and celebrated it…😂 and surprisingly everybody loved it and I got my aspired birthday in the hostel…

But on the other hand of happiness lies something that is known as wishes-from-your-beloved which I didn’t even get.

Turned out into something I never thought I’d see this on my birthday.intrinsically I wanted my one of the long lost friends to wish me and he did not do it very well and I dozed off suddenly after that happily stare on my chat screen turned out to be dead eyed watch!

There were so much of mixed emotions involved and on the birthday morning I woke up and binged upon some delicious Indian cutting chai and Netflix-chill-eat-read-repeattt!!!

Inside the headspace consisting of happiness there was an invasion of some sad place whaich had it’s own gravity aligned with memories that were falling periodically as a reminder.

The most favourite part of birthday is eat along with inviting your inner friend circle and gossip like ladies and gentleman.

Despite of my born in the generation Z age I am that rare person who has mindset of past generations and it is like carrying the legacy 😂 funny right?

I hope you could see me from inside because I may be boring in here but I am really enjoying when my people are around hmmm!!!

It was about to be afternoon when I had plan for sleeping like panda and in that transient peace the reappearance of my hostel friends woke me up and I talk about usuals(like teachers:-good and bad ones;friends:-selfish and snakes;books:-boring and burdened with anxiety;upcoming exams which wis about to ruin our Diwali vacations umm…)

You know what is the hallmark of medical exams:-ruining the only vacations you can get🙃😮‍💨.it is the fantasy for introverts to have such type of schedules.

Then the sun started to set in the resting position all I had were my friends and an app to order the food from along with the residual cake from midnight celebration (my fav of course) and we ordered different sets of Indian cuisines and enjoyed the food till 9 pm…

I felt like there were two tunnels going inside my body—>1) for food 2)for the hidden emotions that were trying hard make their way out.

The one thing I am grateful about is being SPIRITUAL because it prevents you from taking any wrong decisions.i am so involved into it that half of my depression gets cured by meditating.

Let’s light up the good times so it was very MY TYPE of birthday and the way I wanted it to be because we had small gatherings and talks and stuff .😁 I ended up my birthday with certain someone who kept the fire of meditation inside me alive and I am grateful to have her >>we had heart to heart and shared our experiences about our stay in hostel for ~2years almost and threw some insights into future plans (cracking PG exams,moving abroad,money goals,house goals,parents,children and husbands,crushes,toxic medical field and their made toxic relationships,the underlying cause of the toxicities all around er cetera).

It was around 1:25 am on 26th September night we greet each other our goodnight and the bed was already ready to hug while I was laying down I scrolled my chats and relapsing happiness occurred and it indeed made my night and dozed off.

“Everybody is beautiful inside out and it is just us who needs to see their positives”. ~~ anonymous