Diary of Anony Elle

If you are reading this the battle has begun.

I have packed a small suitcase, a small duffle bag, and a bookbag to begin my travels from Chicago to the Orlando area. I am looking for my babies and I will go to the highest mountain and the DEPTHS OF HELL to find them!

There are a lot of moving pieces to this story, and I can’t tell you how I started, So let’s just start at the end of Summer 2021. I was keeping a low profile so that my children’s father couldn’t find me and kidnap my babies. He had already tried and was almost successful, but I ended up getting them back. During this time, I was in the process of transitioning everything about my life. I had packed me and my babies things up and moved from Chicago to Arkansas. I didn’t have a big plan, but I knew I wanted to start my life over in a new place, and all signs were pointing to a thriving black community in Arkansas. So I went.

In the process, my mother called me and asked if I would let my boys come visit her for a couple weeks because my nephew would be there and she wanted to have them together, which I supported fully. So I drove them from Arkansas to Tennessee and dropped them off at Grandma’s. Now, before I continue this part of the story, let me tell you that I had just got back to a place where I was even talking to my mom and sister. However, I want my boys to spend time with their cousin whenever they can and for however long they can. So I didn’t mind it at all.

I did let my mother know beforehand that she could not make any social media statuses with their picture or information that my boys would be with her because I knew their father would try to kidnap them again. See my children’s father was very abusive when we were together. Not as much physically as he was mentally, spiritually, and financially abusive. I was kind of sheltered growing up so I thought abuse looked one way. Then my children’s father showed me something that changed my life forever. There have been many times where I thought I was losing my mind. I started behaving in ways that I never thought I would behave. I was having thoughts that went against every fiber of my being. I was losing grip of reality and the battle to trusting what I know has been A LONG ONE.

Before narcissism was a trending topic and buzz word, it was the weapon of choice for my children’s father. I didn’t know what it was or what it looked like, I just knew my world was no longer my own. It was a new kind of hell only my worst enemy could have created. I struggled daily for my mental health and sometimes wished to just go crazy, so that way I didn’t have to live in the hell around me. No matter how much I prayed, cried, and begged for the hell to end… It just got worse.

Now I am essentially a childless mother… UNTIL I CHANGE THE WORLD I LIVE IN!

My children’s father kidnapped my boys by traveling across several state lines and using illegal documents to convince the police to force my mother to give them up during that fateful summer trip. My world hasn’t been the same since, and although I have continuously tried to co-parent EVEN AFTER the kidnapping, their dad still refuses to do right by my babies and continually keep them from me, intentionally trying to distance me from my children and ruin our relationship with distance and abandonment.

So, the battle has begun and I will fight to the death of me to finish this war I once refused to participate in. Many people will hate me for how I choose to fight my fight. However, those same people sat back and watched as my world crushed me from within. Now I will tell my story, and that includes what they all did to me. I will tell the world how this all started and how I ended it! My story. From beginning to end. I share my testimony so that no one else can tell my story.

I’m doing this for my babies.

They deserve to know what happened and why, and just in case anything ever happens to me, I want MY STORY to be told.

This is where you, the reader, comes in.

I will be posting regularly about things I went through and where I am in the journey of finding my babies. All I ask is that you follow the story and share! I will be sharing my journey on other social media platforms soon, but for now I have to keep this as quiet as I can until I locate my babies. I will then reveal my identity and begin to share more, expose my children’s father, and his current girlfriend (because she helped him kidnap them AND is currently housing them all). I gave her a warning when she called me a couple years ago crying about how horrible our children’s father is… and begging me to tell her he has tried to sleep with me so that she can have a reason to leave him. I told her then she only had a little time left before his Karma starts to catch up with her. She didn’t listen, so now we’re here!

Until next time…