A new step

Why are you reading if you aren't ready to be busy with my words?

Am done, yea am done for?

Everybody have put in the “brackets what's best for you” if I was asked to make a wish I bet,
You won't be able to guess, why? Because you're not me, you don't have my eyes nor my soul and my mind.

Every feeling, emotions seem so special and magnificent for, if you think otherwise then tell me the reason behind all these reasons. I say so because my eyes seem to be a detective. It doesn't leave anything unturned. It always wants to and not only that she always finds the need to express herself every time. Sometimes I see that as a gift, having in mind that not everyone has such a gift, I sometimes feel awkward when she opens the door without knocking. I have no control over her and I wish to have control.

“Hello, how are you doing?”

“ Am good, what about you, how are you feeling today?”

Time has stopped, the wind lays at her feet, the trees are whistling to the sound of joy mixed with tears.
This day comes not so rare,
but today felt like the needle in the ocean, this day,
Today felt like the reunion of the moon and the sun.

We are always entitled to say yes, but then there's a shadow lurking behind our ears reminding us to express ourselves.
That's not the issue, to them, to the people that we want to express our feelings to, will they understand or hear the barbarian language?
Especially those who have created a box and put us in it. Just like a singer said “ our families, our friends, we are in a box which they have put us”
Meaning “ they know for this or that” so when you want to let out that dark crystal which is not clear to them it kinda feels strange. But when you discover new people, you discover parts of you that you were ignorant of.

So tell me how do I answer that question? How do I fly among fowl? How can I become an eagle among ducks?

If you ask me “what do you want to become, what do you want to be in the future?” I won't be able to answer because I have no idea.
I've already been presented with boxes of what they call “sure to make you successful” . The funny part is that none of what I want, I need is In that box. “If you choose from this box you're sure to become successful”. Why?

Am In a place where what I wanna be is “ null and void”

I want to stop sharing, when I share it feels “useless” .
I want to create my own box and I will create it and fill in whatever I know is Best for me.

I won't miss talking about fear, the fear of the unknown, a scary feeling but I still want and find the need to take this risk, for by then will I get the opportunity to evolve as a human.
I don't need to know what I'll become in the future, for I'll be what I want to become.

People say that there's no perfect time to do something, to become something, to achieve something, it starts now and I have already started even though it feels slow. Even though it feels impossible I'll keep pushing till I reach my desired destination and what matters most is living the moment while being on your journey.
With the Great help of GOD, I know that his always with me and will always be.

Thanks for reading.