You will know why I choose to despise horror movies.

You might have never heard that all the diverse mix of emotions are like a resource of many and various kinds of color out of which a beautiful masterpiece can be designed or a terrible mess of mixing can happen.

I recall when I was in boarding school, one early morning about 5 am that I arose out of my bed and came out of my hostel seeking to find some water. You know growing up in the heart of Africa, outdoor wells were the major source of water.

That day, I discovered an aspect of the human mind that I only came to understand a few years ago. The mind is where all that is ideal, real, and illusion can be conjured.

When I looked at a tree log that I knew had been abandoned a few weeks ago lying by the well even at a distance of a child's stone throw, I saw the most terrifying being! I couldn't believe my eyes. The log seemed to suddenly grow limbs and huge tail.

It appeared as a monstrous crocodile, oh my - before I could think of fleeing the scene, I let out the loudest scream, louder than I ever thought I could blast. In less than a minute, everyone was awake. All my fellow pupils and matrons from the two hostels made there way out side in less than 5 minutes.

I was relieved and comforted upon seeing them, however, I realized that they panicked more and appeared to be more threatened than I was. Some of them thought there was a fire outbreak, other were having there on nightmare when the had a young boy scream out his lungs!

I failed to explain myself when I was interviewed about everything. To me, my vision was real, and yet to them I appeared to have some sort of mental breakdown. As a result, most of my friends started avoiding me, I was the creepy child at school.

The human mind primarily uses imagination in order to translate, interpret and also reason out circumstances or situations. I have met emotionally numb people and I understand them most for I myself have been emotionally numb for many years, shutting away everything and everyone then throwing away the keys into oblivion.

More than 90% of everyone's imagination is structured by emotions or feelings. Emotions can be both conscious and subconscious, for instance; a physical person could make you feel a certain way, whereas for a subconscious example, you could feel a dreadful emotion or perhaps a joyful emotion or a mix whereas dreaming or after waking up from a dream of the night.

Whenever and whatever, we allow to flood our imaginations thru 'the 5 senses' shall end up influencing the emotional structures of our human minds thereby causing us to respond accordingly, beautiful potential can either be released or snuffed out likewise.

In my opinion which I know works and is true, when dealing with how to develop an emotional structure that produces beauty and life everlasting even to impact generations to come;- (please consider them in exact order as lined up.)

- Trust no human being then seek to learn, understand and trust in divine principles which never change, righteousness - peace and joy in the Holy Ghost.

- Consider individuals as separate entities weighing each against the standard of divine principle you have understood.

- Always talk to yourself, encourage yourself in the principles you have learned even when you don't fully understand.

Given a certain depth of understanding in divine principle, even emotional numbness can have great profit from divine perspective, that is why there shall always be hope.

Honestly speaking, your life isn't for everyone to access or influence, especially now that most people are feeding on negative imaginations that are disguised as positive from a crowded perspective. Knowing that you are special and of high value causes you to only seek out what you perceive is special and unique to you and not what another person or crowd defines as special yet you don't fully understand it/them.

Emotional numbness is a state of being in which you are not feeling or expressing emotions.

"Emotional numbing is the mental and emotional process of shutting out feelings and may be experienced as deficits of emotional responses or reactivity," explains Mayra Mendez, PhD, LMFT, a licensed psychotherapist and program coordinator at Providence Saint John's Child and Family Development Center.

Quite often, feeling numb is temporary. However, for some, emotional numbness becomes a strategy to protect themselves from further emotional or physical pain. While it may provide temporary relief, learning to cope with difficult feelings this way can have long-lasting consequences.

Symptoms of Emotional Numbness

The symptoms of emotional numbness include:

- Experiencing an inability to fully participate in life.

- Failing to access your feelings.

- Feeling distant or detached from others.

- Feeling flat, both physically and emotionally.

- Having difficulty with experiencing positive feelings such as happiness.

- Losing interest in activities you used to enjoy.

- Preferring isolation rather than being with others.

People with emotional numbness might use strategies to resist confronting their emotions. Even if they're doing it unconsciously, they might use avoidant behaviors and steer clear of certain people or situations. They might be in denial, which is a common defense mechanism people use to avoid emotional triggers and negative feelings.

A major key I have discovered, is how to engineer positive imaginations, even positive emotions out of negative ones. You know, the whole world is under a certain phobia, therefore darkness, hoping for rescue from alien beings which are being considered more intelligent. If you don't think that way, good, however, take careful notice, most influential scientists, politicians and there of kind think otherwise.

The truth is, with access to superior realms even via meditation, any one can gain immunity from all negative imaginations or emotions and instead even use them to create beautiful masterpieces thereby securing an eternal legacy!

Shalom & Blessings!

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